J I M I N

It's been about a week since I've started working again. My parents were able to stay at our place with Minchan while we're out working.

Mina told me that when she went back to work, people were acting differently towards her. I didn't think that would happen to me, but it did.

I noticed that the clothes that the stylists designed for me were less...revealing? I don't know, maybe it was just a coincidence, but I also noticed that there were less fan sites taking photos of me and people were paying less attention to me in general. My members insist that they haven't noticed anything out of the ordinary, but I think they're just saying that.

Anyways, we've been preparing for our finale concert. This is the largest concert we'll ever have. It's going to be in the Seoul World Cup Stadium which holds up to sixty-six thousand people. It's also going to be broadcast on live TV and livestreaming on various online platforms for free.

We wanted to make sure it was available for everyone. If it was going to be our last concert, we wanted every single army to be there with us. If only there was a stadium large enough, but unfortunately, today, that just doesnt exist. There are just too many armys.

It's going to be a long show. I came up with the idea of doing at least two songs from each of our different eras, starting from our first one, Skool Luv Affair. On top of that, each of us would have our own solo stage. I heard that they're putting together a special VCR for us to watch. Armys help edit the video so that makes it even more special.

I'm somewhat excited for this, but I also don't want it to come. It will be our last concert. It may be the last time all seven of us are standing on stage together. Just the thought of it makes my heart wrench.

It's hard to say what I want these days. I'm sad that BTS is retiring soon, but on the other hand, I'll have more free time and time to spend with my family. But BTS...is like my family. We spent all these years together. I'm going to miss doing concerts and fan signs...but nothing lasts forever.

We can all go live normal lives and let the next generation have their time to shine. We've had the spotlight for long enough. We're past the prime of our lives and I think it's about time we settle down.

The day of our final concert came. I sang and danced my heart out.

The concert started in the late afternoon and went on all night. I had a great time being on stage with my brothers. It brought back a lot of memories.

The special VCR was about ten minutes long. It had clips from all of music videos, our concerts, our highlight reels, behind the scenes, our VLive shows, our interviews, our fan signs, everything. It was very nostalgic.

Approaching the end of our eras, armys sang along with us and I know in my heart that armys were watching and singing with us all around the world.

We sang our last song without any background music. It was just our voices and the voice from the crowd. It sounded beautiful.

The end came too soon.

Each member gave a speech and talked for a long time. I spoke after Hobi-hyung.

"Ah...this is really it, huh?" I say into the mic.

The crowd sounded sad.

"Thank you for being here. No matter how long you've been with us, I just want to let you know that I appreciate you and we purple you." I started to choke on my words.

Both Yoongi-hyung and Jungkook came to put their hands on my shoulders.

"This is what I've known for so long. BTS was my whole life...but now..." The tears started falling.

The audience makes a collective "aww".

"We all have to be strong and move on now. I have a family I have to take care of and I'm sure my brothers would like to live a bit of their lives too."

I pull the mic away from my face to get myself to stop crying so much.

"I will never forget this day. All of you made this day very special to us and it's hard to see it all end. I hope you never forget us and I hope you all had an amazing time with us today and over the years. " I wipe my cheek, "Whatever happens with us and with you, promise you'll never forget about us, okay? I want you to remember how you smiled and how we laughed together. I want you to remember the joy we brought you, because I will definitely remember all of the joy you have brought me."

I let it all out. This was our final concert as BTS. I couldn't leave anything out.

Jungkook was the last one to speak, and his speech was probably the most emotional. I watched him proudly while he spoke. He wasn't the same kid I met more than twelve years ago. I remember Jin-hyung used to drive him to school during out training days. I look across the stage at my brothers.

Namjoon-hyung...Jin-hyung....Yoongi-hyung...Hobi-hyung...Taehyung...Jungkook.

And then I looked out into the sea of armys. All of their army bombs were purple, creating the iconic purple ocean.

After we were all done speaking, there wasn't a single dry eye in the stadium.

For a second, it was completely silent as we let each other just breathe.

We went back to the center of the stage and waved goodbye to the audience for the last time.

"We love you!!" I yelled.

"Get home safe, army!" Hobi shouted.

"I love you army!!" Tae shouted.

The lights go off.

It was done. Our last concert was over.

I started crying again. Backstage, as everyone left, we had our final talk.

"This isn't the last time we'll see each other." Namjoon reminds us.

I nod.

"Thank you guys...so much." Yoongi says.

"I love you guys." Tae says, starting to cry too.

"This isn't over, yeah?" Jin says, bringing us all together in a tight group hug.

Jungkook couldn't even speak because he was crying so hard.

"We worked so hard for so many years, we deserve a break, don't you think?" Hobi says, trying to comfort Jungkook.

We stood there silently hugging each other until everyone stopped crying. My heart hasn't felt this way in a long time.

I will never forget this day.