(Ship requested by Layla_MS)

(Concept: Namjoon recently confessed to Jeongyeon after hiding his feelings for so long. Jeongyeon is still unsure about how she really feels about him)

(Jeongyeon POV)

What have I gotten myself into the time..?

A few days ago, Namjoon-oppa told me something I never expected. By the way he acted around me, I never would've guessed that he felt like that about me.

He asked me out on a date and I didn't know what to do so I just said yes.

It's not like I don't like him, it's just I don't know if I like him like that.

He's always been kind to me and we would bond over little things, but this was really unexpected.

I told myself to just go so I can find out how I really feel.

It's not like those typical love stories where a guy confesses and the girl just automatically feels the same way or rejects him.

I didn't know what I wanted. Hopefully this date will help me get things figured out.

He wanted to walk to the park with me in the evening, after I explained my situation to him, he suggested we could hang out there and talk things out.

I was nervous by the time we meet to start walking. It was uncomfortably quiet between us. 

"So...how has your day been..?" He finally says something.

"Oh...it's been okay." I say.

"Tell me about it." He tries to make eye contact with me, but I couldn't hold it for more than two seconds.

"Um...well," I scratch my arm, "We were in the studio until the afternoon. After that a few of us went to the gym. We came home...and now I'm here."

It was so awkward. I didn't want it to be like this, but we both didn't really know what we were doing.

"Oh. Cool." He says and faces forward again.

I started getting mad at myself. Do something, you're making him feel bad!

"Uh, what about you? How was your day?" I force myself to say something, anything.

"Oh," his eyes light up, "we were really busy today, but I'm glad I had time to be here with you."

I feel my face get warm so I look down.

We got to the park and sat down on a bench facing the field of grass.

"Thanks for coming out with me." He says.

"Yeah. Thanks for asking me."

It was quiet for a few seconds before he asks me a question.

"So...I don't mean to sound pushy, but have you figured...it out yet..?"

I take a deep breath.

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about." I say.

He tilts his head, signaling me to go on.

"Look, oppa." I finally make lock eyes with him, "I always thought we were good friends and you've always been so nice to me, but I've never been in a relationship before."

The expression on his face slowly changes.

"I think I'm just scared." I confess.

"Hey." He says, leaning closer to me, "I'm not saying you have to, but if we did...do this...I would do whatever it takes to make you feel comfortable, you know that, right?" I saw that spark of hope in his eyes.

I didn't say anything right away so he keeps going.

"And if you need more time to think about it, then you take all the time you need." He smiles, that little dimple on his cheek appearing out of thin air.

My heart was in a weird place, but seeing how much he wanted this changed something inside of me. I knew what kind of person he was and I knew he would treat me right. I had no reason not to trust him.

"I think we should give this a try." I tell him. 

He raises his eyebrows, "R-really?"

I nod, "I've made up my mind. This is what I want."

He laughs softly to himself, "Thank you for giving me a chance. I promise you won't regret it."

A few months go by, and everything's changed.

After just a few weeks together, I got more comfortable around him and showing my emotions to him. I enjoyed the time we spent together, making each other laugh and smile.

I was right about him. He treats me like I'm his whole world.

I always try to return the favor, be he constantly goes out of his way to make me happy.

He says it's not a competition, but he's always going to be in the lead if he keeps doing this.

I start to realize this is starting to become a long-term relationship.

I started worrying again, but we had good communication with each other.

We were there for each other whenever we had problems whether it was about work, friends, whatever it was, we always talked about it. It wasn't long before we basically knew everything about each other.

Namjoon is literally my first boyfriend, but from where we are now, it looks like he might be my last.

If I had to choose someone to spend my first relationship with, it would be Kim Namjoon.