i am a child
surrounded by dolls
they're all so pretty
i have to look like them
i have to look like them
i want you to love me

i tear my clothes apart
and pull on my hair
scratching and cutting my skin
i hate every bit of me
why can i not be like them?
i'll never be the one you love in the end

you said you love the way
she says your name
but you don't even compliment
me when i sing
you always take away my dreams

there's nothing i ever wanted
other than to make you happy
but i was never enough

is it because of how i look
or my voice or the way i talk?
is it what i say or how i think?
you fuck all these girls
and i try my hardest not to blink

i am a toy
i live to serve you
i was born for your pleasure
isn't that right?
master?

i want to fuck you so hard
you forget how good she is
i want you to only look at me
but no matter what i do
i'll never fucking be her!

i'm just a kid
in an adult's body
i rip my face apart
i'll write your name
in my very own blood
loving you is torture
but pain is my art

tell me all about it
i wanna hear how
she's so much better in every way
and that i'm worthless

a walking doll
for you to throw whenever you want
that's all i've ever been
to every man in my life

lovebomb me
abuse me
make me feel safe
until i get so dependent
and you hate me

then abandon me

it's what i deserve
because i wasn't born
to be just like her