(Requested)

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Expect the worst.

Feel your life slipping away from your fingertips as you fall into the misty sky.

You can't hear the others' screams, can you?

You can't feel the pain, slicing through your back as glass breaks your skin.

Most importantly:

You can't feel your lover's tears falling onto your face as you gently kiss his soft lips and go limp as you take your final breath.

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I struggled against Jiho, who was desperately slicing at the air, cutting me in the process.

"Stop, please," I begged, crystal tears landing onto the floor, my vision getting blurrier with each sob that was greedily, mercilessly pulled out of my heaving body.

"You were never my friends! You never cared!" he cried out, blinded by rage, sympathy for himself.

The whole world seemed to stop as he pushed me, Daniel, and the other guy out the window.

I smiled and waved goodbye to Jiho as tears flowed freely down my cheeks. I breathed out one last time, and smiled, thinking of my blond coconut-headed boyfriend as I descended to the ground.

I want to live for you, Jae.

But fate says otherwise.

At least I'll get to meet Mom and Dad.

I missed them.

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Like snow piles up, I remember what you gave me

You gave me the courage to live

We met each other beyond all time

So now how do we do? Can we make it work?

This fragile love

The world moves faster than we thought

How we gonna change it?

We don't know yet but for sure we will

I want to hold you one more time before you disappear

Ah, crystal flies high wherever it goes

Hey, there's nothing else I want, I just want to feel a little more

Can I touch your heart？

I want to touch it but it keeps slipping through my fingers, someday, someday

Your little smile somehow hurts me

How can I be closer uh uh?

Why can't I find an answer for this love?

How am I gonna find it? How?

Oh, let me know

Crystal snow only holds an ambiguous shape

I can't bear my story of unrequited love

Eh I'll manage to change it on my own

I want to protect you one more time before tears run down your face

But crystal gets further from reach, the more I wish for it

Even after hundred years, I want to live with you

Can I be your one?

There is no single star in this snowy sky, oh, someday, someday

The two of us are already far apart

Even though we are meant to be together

Now we can't choose the paint that colors us

Even the black breath

Even your thick white fog

I feel, I feel, I feel, I feel

Oh yeah, oh, crystal snow, crystal snow

Inside the white fog

Even though you pass through me and turn to water, you are still in my heart

(You are in my heart)

I watch you shining and reflecting on every single sparkling thing

I'll wait for you no matter where

I want to see you, even if you're pretending, please hold this hand

The warmth of love started melting

This genuine warmth, please stay forever

I want to hold you one more time before you disappear

Crystal flies high to reach you

Hey, words aren't enough to express my feelings but I will tell you as it is

Can I touch your heart?

I want you to believe me, I'll come get you

Someday, someday

It's always you, it's always you, crystal snow

(Let me see your smile, oh baby, eh)

It's always you, it's always you, crystal snow

(Let me feel your love forever, hoo)

It's always you, it's always you, crystal snow

(Let me feel your love, our crystal snow yeah)

It's always you, it's always you, crystal snow

Oh yeah, crystal snow, oh, oh

Forever baby (baby), crystal snow

(Crystal Snow- BTS)

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Jae was calmly walking down the street, admiring the soft pillows of white snow layered around him, warming his hands in his pockets when he heard a crash. Glass. Glass broke from a five story building. He looked and saw three figures tumbling down.

One of which looked like his girlfriend. Jae had to see this up close, so he bolted towards the scene. The paramedics had already arrived on the set, carrying the three limp bodies on a stretcher.

His heart dropped when he saw (Y/N) on one of the platforms.

Jae used all his might to rush forwards, to even hold her in his arms. He didn't care about anything else. The damn officers had to restrict him.

He wanted to cry out for her, hoping that she would hear him and wake up, and smile and kiss him and tell him that everything was alright.

That smile was still on her face, even though she had dropped from that building. He felt tears build up in his eyes as he cried, and cried, and cried.

The crowd dispersed after a few minutes, leaving the blonde male sitting there, looking at the ground sorrowfully. He felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Hey," the voice said softly, "Get up." Jae looked, and there was Daniel Park. The shorter one. He had met him one time before, during the Logan-money incident.

"Should we go to the hospital and check up on them?" Jae nodded, but noticed a huge blood stain on the short Daniel's head. He worriedly pointed to it and motioned to the hospital. Daniel chuckled.

"I'm completely fine, don't worry."

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"I'm sorry." Jae felt like collapsing onto the ground and never getting up.

"She's in a coma. Her vitals are unstable. We can't do anything," the doctor said solemnly. "At this rate, she might even die. We're sorry, Mr. Yeol." Jae only nodded and the doctor left. His hands were shaking, not from rage, but from fright and grief.

What will happen. What the hell will happen when she's gone? Why did it have to be like this?

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The next three days, Jae went to school. He didn't touch anyone or motion to anyone. He didn't even look out the window. He didn't pay attention to class, nor did he listen to the teachers.

He just sat and started at his rings covered fingers and tried not to cry. Right after school, he would have his car take him to the hospital where he held (Y/N)'s hand and looked at her, praying she would wake up. Even in slumber, her face looked as beautiful as ever. He would stay until his time with her was over.

On the second day, Daniel came back into class. For the first time, Jae didn't care. He wished it was (Y/N), the same person who greeted everyone with a smile, the same person who could make even Logan laugh at one of her jokes, and the same person who Jae loved with all of his heart.

But alas, she was in that same bed, in that same hospital, just waiting until death took her.

Jae was bitter.

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He was with her when she took her last breaths. He was with her the whole time she stopped breathing, and the monitor slowly descended into a flat line. After that, his tears softly slipped onto her now cold hand and slid onto the white lining of the bed.

"She's gone. She's gone and it's all my fault."

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Jae was at her funeral. He just stood there, looking at the casket. He didn't cry during the public event, but when he was alone at her grave, he burst into tears, hugging the granite tightly, wishing he'd never trusted her to go out and confront the little arrogant punk.

Wishing she was still alive so she could kiss and hug him, and tell him everything was alright.

Wishing...

He could be up there with her.

Finally meet her parents,

Live the life they always wanted.

Together, forever.

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A bell sounded as the soul entered the area. Two figures and a girl turned towards the sound. The male and the female smiled.

"We'll leave you two alone. Take your time." The girl was confused until she saw the blonde-bombshell coloration of the boy's hair.

"Jae," she whispered. "Oh my god, Jae!" She ran into his arms, but couldn't touch him.

"What-"

Jae Yeol woke up in cold sweat. He clutched his head and felt hot tears running down his face again.

Not this dream again. Please, anything but this.