"Oh, these times are hard and they're making us crazy but don't give up on me baby."

- For the First Time, The Script

3. Cohabitation

A week after ...

Taehyung got discharged. Seokjin thanked the heavens that Taehyung can now finally rest. It's been a hell of a week for the both of them, but more especially for Seokjin. He might not be emotionally in pain, but his heart is being torn apart because of how cold Taehyung feels towards him. Jin is able to see him every day, be close to him like he wished they were before, but hour by hour he only proves t himself that Taehyung is so far away.

Seokjin feels so alone like an island in the middle of a vast ocean. He is faced with uncertainties of what their relationship might end up after this. He is so afraid, and lately, that is the only emotion he has been able to name. He can't sleep, nor eat properly and his brother is worried sick about him. Jungkook has scolded him a couple of times already for watching on his own health too, not just Taehyung's alone.

But what can Seokjin do? His whole existence revolved around Taehyung and Taehyung alone. For ten years he had loved the man. Burning in jealousy whenever he always looked for Yoongi and profess his love for the man in one way or another. But despite feeling that way, he kept his mouth shut. He can't fight love, and he perfectly knows that. If Yoongi will make his Taehyungie happy, then so be it. he is not the possessive type after all.

To be fair to him, Yoongi tried to push him to Taehyung, but the other is just focused on Yoongi that Seokjin ran out of options and just settled on watching on the sidelines. He watched as Taehyung fell madly in love with Yoongi, but his best friend despite all the love notes and gifts that Taehyung lavished him, those gifts that Seokjin hoped and longed for to be for him were only disregarded. Because like the three of them, Yoongi loved someone else, and that someone else is Namjoon who loved Yoongi equally, but he needed to fly to the US to pursue his studies and Yoongi swore to wait.

On the other hand, Yoongi knew of Seokjin's ever-blooming feelings for Taehyung and he tried so, so hard for Jin to be happy with the man he likes, but it only ended up with Taehyung hating him more. Saying that Jin is purposely trying to steal Yoongi away from him and that he is playing the best friend card so Yoongi will love him more. He hated Seokjin to the core without the knowledge that the older only has eyes for him.

So, when Seokjin was given the chance to be with Taehyung, he grabbed it even though most of the time, his insecurities have been eating him alive and the lingering thought that he can never be enough because he is not Yoongi is etched to his brain. It's not that Taehyung didn't love him, he did love him, Seokjin believes, but he also needed assurance. An assurance that no matter what, Taehyung won't leave him and that the other really did learn to love him and not just settled with him because he is the one available at the given moment.

And now even though Taehyung is here, beside him inside the car the man is not speaking to him but is instead he is on his phone chatting with Jimin and Hoseok. He badly wanted to pull him for a conversation and reminisce the good old days with him but seeing him look so happy chatting with everyone but he just makes him want to stop his actions and settle on the sidelines watching him just like how he did before.

And he did just that. He kept quiet savoring Taehyung's presence and let the drive pass by. Once they reached their destination, he spoke:

"Welcome to our home, Taehyung."

Taehyung looked in awe. He faced Seokjin, and for the first time that day he smiled directly at him, "Is this really ours?"

Seokjin nodded his head.

"Wow, I think I earn a lot if I helped you buy this house." He said and kept walking inside with his bags in his hand. "Even the furniture is great! Oh my god!"

A chuckled passed Seokjin's lips.

Hearing that, Taehyung stopped his tracks and looked at Seokjin.

"That's a first," he said.

Seokjin wondered what he is talking about. "First of what? Are you remembering something?"

Taehyung shook his head, "No. I mean you, that's the first time I heard you chuckle."

Oh.

"It's nothing, Tae. I just don't laugh too much these days, I'm quite stressed with work."

Taehyung nodded and kept looking around the place. He eyes the console table and he seemed to notice something lacking there, it's so plain for his eyes and he wondered where his love for romance and sappy things went. Did he grow up to be so boring?

"Jin-hyung, if you're my fiancé, why don't we have photos all around the house?" he asked genuinely curious. "I can clearly remember swearing to myself that once I found the love of my life, I will paint his pictures and fill our house with photos. Why haven't I seen one here?"

Taehyung watched as Seokjin's doe eyes turned dark and sad. For the past week, he has been with the man, all he can feel around him is sadness and gloominess. He gets it that he got in an accident and he can't remember what they have, but Taehyung can sense that it ran much deeper than the accident alone. He eyes him and observed that Jin's eyes are watering.

What's happening?

Was I a bad boyfriend?

Why is he always sad?

He kept asking himself those questions. He surely can't remember Seokjin properly, but he saw their photos and some of them were kissing and he is indeed convinced that they are a couple. He can't say if he feels anything except that his heart feels heavy and he can't pinpoint what exact thing he is feeling.

"Jin-hyung?"

Jin bit his lip before answering, "Uhm, you don't want to. I remembered asking you one time, but you heavily declined. Maybe your preferences changed ... or I'm not the love of your life."

The last part was a mumble and Taehyung failed to hear it.

"Hm, too bad." He walked towards the empty spaces and looked at the walls. Even the walls are empty. The house feels strange for him. this house never gets his personality. How can my 28-year-old self like this? He faced Jin again and with an excited voice he spoke, "Hyung, will it be okay if one day I took various photos of you, of us, and place it in every corner of the house?"

Seokjin thought about it for a minute, he is reluctant, "What if your memories come back and you decide you don't want to place our photos there together?"

"I don't think so," he assured. "You have my word! One day my memories come back, and so is my feelings, I don't think I will get mad over simple photos."

Seokjin just nodded his head. Taehyung frowned; he didn't expect that kind of reaction from him. He is left wondering as Seokjin walked upstairs and placed his bags in their room. They have talked earlier, and he didn't mind sharing a room with Seokjin. They are engaged and maybe they have done more than just kissing the past six years.

He blushed and suddenly flashes of intimate scenes flashed in his head. He saw a beach, sand, under the night skies and moon necklace became vivid in his mind. Maybe it's one of their anniversaries. He shook his head. He will never speak about it to anyone. How embarrassing it is that the first thing he remembered is him having sex!

"Hey, why are you flustered?"

"Nothing! I'll go shower, first hyung!"

Seokjin just looked at him and shook his head.

"Weird."

A/n: to be honest, I really like this plot in my head (which by the way I only finished plotting earlier this afternoon), just please pray that I give this justice.

thoughts?