am i that useless in your heart?
in your brain, in your soul?
such an inconvenient soul that i cannot even be trusted
with information i have flooded to you?

i remember once
i thought, eyes wide and heavy tongue
i could grasp onto something i lost
and leave you be.
i did not want to look at you and see you become what
i am

i did not want to create
another child with broken dreams and
slit wrists.

strong people don't go for weaklings
i wonder why you
went for me, than