Bible completely blew his top after hearing Barcode's lie, he seemed to have lost patience with his little brother. He wanted Barcode to regain consciousness and take back his decision before it went any further.

-Barcode Tinnasit! Why are you still defending him, does it help ease your pain? Will it stop you from crying your eyes out? Will it make you any happier? You shouldn't care about P'Jeff anymore, he is a bad guy, he doesn't deserve such an angel like you!

-No he's not! Don't say that, P'Jeff is not a bad guy!

Barcode tried his best to defend Jeff till the end, even if it meant he had to act rude towards other casts. Jeff saw tears welling up in Barcode's eyes, the look of disappointment was found behind his wry face.

-P'Jeff is really good to me, don't you dare talk about him like that!

-Just fucking stop it! Why are you so stubborn Barcode?!

Bible squeezed Barcode's shoulders tightly, they stared into each other's eyes, unable to say a thing. Bible grinned, an angel accidentally fell in love with a demon, god always knew how to create such heartbreaking scenarios. God might be too cruel to those two, he brought them together then separated them from each other. How could their relationship turned out how they used to be when both of them were unintentionally ruining it day by day.

-P'Bible, I'm being honest, it's not P'Jeff fault at all.

-Yeah right, I'll keep my mouth shut from now on.

Barcode's voice was so certain that Bible got sick of arguing with him. He realized that there was no way Barcode could get over Jeff. He eventually gave up and left the room.

Jeff just sat there, every single action of Barcode was captured in his mind. He could never let him quit acting just because of their scandal, he still had a bright future in front of him, it would be too merciless to ruin it.

-Barcode...can you reconsider?

Jeff finally got the courage to talk to Barcode, whose eyes were red and swollen from crying.

Barcode did not respond, he just looked at his P' and smiled softly. His smile was full of agony. And he kept smiling, he smiled like it was the last time he could do that, he hoped P'Jeff could cherish that smile and him also. Meanwhile, Jeff wanted nothing but Barcode's old obedient behavior.

-Barcode, I beg you, please don't.

-P'Jeff, I can't keep going anymore, my career path...it should end here.

Barcode shrugged his shoulders, once again he made Jeff feel like caressing and hugging him tightly. He then turned around and opened the door, he left the room, left the one who only saw him as a substitution.

-Barcode! Where are you going?

P'Build called him but he was already gone. It was too late, Barcode would never come back.

Jeff tried his best to chase after Barcode. He went through every single room. He promised to himself that he would keep Barcode by his side forever at all cost if he knew where the little boy was.

What a pity, Barcode was nowhere to be found that night.

Jeff was left alone with extreme apprehension that something bad would happen to Barcode.

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A month had passed since the day Barcode made an announcement about quitting acting. He went on ignoring everyone's advice, including Jeff's.

That night was a moonlit night, Barcode's shoulder trembled because of the cold weather on December. He was sitting on the balcony, his legs swung in the air while humming a song.

-I just wanna make you feel okay

But all you do is look the other way

I can't tell how much I wish I didn't wanna stay

I just kinda wish you were...gay

He sighed softly, above him was the lofty infinite sky, below him was the deep cold ground. He could not help but wonder, where did he belong to.

-Barcode!

The sound of the door opened startled Barcode, he turned around and saw P'Jeff. He was covered in sweat, his face was as pale as a dead body.

-You...why are you here?

-Barcode, please come down here, can we talk?

Jeff quickly grabbed Barcode's hand and pulled him from the balcony. Barcode, withdrew his hand from Jeff and shook his cute round head.

-I can't, I have other business to do now.

-Can you tell me what's the business, then I can do it with you.

Barcode giggled then looked at the starry sky, every single star carrying his dream of a peaceful life with his loved one started disappearing, one by one. His eyes was filled with desperation.

-I'm afraid...you aren't able to do this

-Just tell me, dear.

I don't want to live anymore. I'm planning to jump down from here, can you do it with me?

His voice might seem calm, but his shoulders were shuddering as he talked.

-You...Where are your parents, wait here, I'm gonna go find them. Barcode I beg you, please don't.

Jeff comfort Barcode while hurriedly looked up Barcode's mother's phone number. A hand suddenly reached out, Barcode held Jeff's shaking hand when he was about to lose his mind because of Barcode's decision.

-Don't, I don't want to disturb them. I still have something to tell you, about my parents and sister...perhaps I will have to ask you to deliver my messages to them.

Barcode smiled naughtily but happiness could not be found anywhere in his eyes. Jeff could see desperation and pain inside them.

-I'll call them and then you guys can talk to each other, can I?

-No Jeff, I don't want them to see me pathetic like this.

-Barcode I beg you, please don't. I don't want your future to be ruined by me. Please come down here, I'm sorry Barcode, I'm sorry...

Barcode did not say a thing, he was busy looking at the moon, his mind was lost in an unknown universe, an universe where he could live happily ever after with Jeff.

-My life has already been planned by God, if I die today, it's fate, you have nothing to do with it.

-You know, P'Maei took her own life because of me, so my death might be an eye for an eye, don't you think? P'Jeff, please don't be upset, please don't be mad. If I die, will you get over P'Maei's death?

Jeff's eyes turned red, everything Barcode had just said was like a knife that stabbed him right in his heart. The image of Barcode sitting on the balcony faded in front of Jeff's eyes. Not until now did he realize how badly he treated the little boy in the past and realized his feelings for him. He could never imagine his life without Barcode. He was in such deep hatred that he did not take notice of his own feelings, but he was aware of it, at that moment he was willing to do anything just to keep Barcode by his side.

-I'm not upset anymore, see? I'm sorry Barcode, I know my mistakes now, please don't feel sad because of the things that happened in the past...I was wrong about everything, you're not to blame at all. Please don't jump, it will break me...

-No, you're not wrong, it was me. Tonight is our last night together...please live happily after I die, please take care of my parents and my sister for me. I owe you and everyone a happy life, I'll pay you all next time we meet.

Barcode's face was full of tears again, he smiled painfully. Jeff looked at the little boy in front of him and started crying out loud.

-P'Jeff, don't cry, I can't hug you right now. If you keep crying like this, who can come and comfort you after I'm gone?

Barcode looked at Jeff for the last time with his loving look.

-Barcode, I...

-Goodbye, P'Jeff.

Barcode interrupt Jeff, then let go of the balcony and fell down onto the street. Jeff stood still looking at his beloved one jumping down, the love confession stopped before it was spoken out. His eyes opened widely, did he just lose Barcode...?

Moonlight shined upon Bangkok's empty streets, everybody seemed to have fallen asleep. But somewhere else in magnificent Bangkok, there was a tragic scene where a man kneeled next to a young boy's bloody body. Jeff screamed in agony. On the green grass there was the body of an 18-year-old boy with a relieving smile on his face.

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18-year-old Bacode Tinnasit Isarapongporn passed away on a freezing day of December. Netizen and his family were shocked by the sudden death of him.

On the day Barcode's funeral occurred, people saw Jeff standing outside the funeral homes while secretly wiping out tears on his face. Some even saw him standing in front of Barcode's grave, holding a bouquet of flower. He collapsed on the ground then started crying his eyes out while confessing his love to the dead person.

27-year-old Jeff Satur, found dead inside his apartment on the first of January, beside him was a gun and a letter.

The letter was not lengthy but it was full of promises. He promised to Barcode about a happier next life, and told Barcode to wait for him.

Everything happened so fast that it was too overwhelming for everyone to get a grasp of it . Bangkok had lost two lovebirds in just two short weeks. One was a talented musician, the other was a young actor with bright future ahead of him. People might feel sorry for them, but no one knew that death was not the end for them, but a brand new start.

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