❝ I'd spend a lifetime waiting in vain just to go back to the way we were before ❞

Last three weeks and the college will be over, some students were happy and some weren't including Yunho. There is one thing that has been lingering on his mind since the end of month- Mingi. He couldn't understand, he restrained himself for 3 years, but just now, when his best friend had found another, he couldn't help but to get jealous.

Him and Jiwon is strolling along the hallway, talking about things in life, but Jiwon seemed to notice that his boyfriend paid no attention to him. "Love, is something bothering you?" He asked, geniually concerned and worried, Yunho shooked his head, then smiled at him.

But Jiwon doesn't seemed assured on the other, he has been quiet since the ballroom making Jiwon anxious all over. He do understood that Yunho liked Mingi a long ago, but an idea had pushed in his mind: is he still in love with him?

The other guy shooked his head, then continued on walking beside Yunho who was walking ahead of him. But his curious side wanted to know, so he has to know.

The Jeong felt a slight pang of jealousy when he saw how happy Mingi is with the other, He knows what he did in the past was wrong, but he never regretted loving Jiwon since the other seems to understand him. Yunho shrugged all his thoughts, then proceeded on walking towards a specific direction.

Classes had ended, Jiwon knew that he might regret his desicion but this is for the best. He knew about Yunho's soon life, if he didn't do his, Yunho might have the biggest regret in his life. Jiwon fully understands Yunho, just by how he look at the Song, by how his face changes when the Song is talking to him. He do understand.

The taller male decided to shrug all he see, and Jiwon happend to pass by Mingi and Yeosang who was just talking about.. first love? Why does the other looked so pissed about it?

Jiwon sprinted to his lover, pulled his wrist drawing Yunho's attention, "Come with me. I have something to tell you." He spoke, making Yunho nod and smile. Jiwon regrets all he did, starting from the courting, he was never loyal. While Yunho is far away from him, he tried banging others, fling with others and many more.

Attaining to their destination, Yunho was baffled, they were at Jiwon's home. The other male welcomed him, then both proceeded upstairs; at Jiwon's room. The Jeong placed his bag carefully to the ground and sat comfortably at Jiwon's cushion.

On the other half, Jiwon sat at the swivel chair, sweating visibly. "Yunho. I'm sorry for all of what I did." He started by apologizing, making the other confuse, "I'm not.. loyal as you think. I cheated on you multiple times.." He added, trailing off making Yunho's eye widen at such revealation.

Sure he is in love with Mingi, but he had a feelings with Jiwon too. By hearing the sentence, Yunho couldn't hear no longer, he held his palms indicating the other to stop. His eyes became blurry due to the tears that was produced. "And I know, that.. you're still in love with Mingi." Jiwon stated, voice hinted with pain.

Both of them loved each other of course.

Yunho couldn't process any longer, was Jiwon cheating on him for 3 years? His mind is driving him crazy, it was filled with negative thoughts and consequences that might happen to him. He couldn't restrain himself anymore, Yunho let all the tears fell down.

In Jiwon's surprise, Yunho's tears is... stars.. The taller's vision became blurry, he couldn't see anything but stars. He grasped his cheeks only to see how amount of tears he produced. He wasn't surprise, it was massive.

He has been keeping all these pain for so many years and he thought that it is the right time to cry his heart out. "I'm sorry. Let's end everything here, alright?" Jiwon spoke, soothing the other's back, "stop crying, you might go blind!" His ex-lover spoke loudly, worrying but it never stopped him.

Yunho threw Jiwon's hands and snatched his bag. He want to cry where there is no person nor anything. Then, he sprinted down despite of not seeing anything but tears.

❝ Was it the wrong time, what if we tried giving in a little more,
To the warmth we had before? ❞

Walking down at the streets, Yunho didn't contemplate whenever he is, the only important thing is he is far away from anyone. As he continued walking, his sight became more blurry than the usual episodes. Everytime he cries, his tears isn't much that bother and he can still see a little bit.

Then, it started to rain. Still he didn't care.

In this episode, his memories became blurry and moist to the point that all he can remember is the name ❛Song Mingi❜. His legs became wobbly, lips quivering due to both coldness and pain he was feeling. He doesn't understand, why is he sad? Why is he crying? What's the point of crying when your desired person is already taken by someone else?

Those were all his last thought before fainting to the street.

Waking up, feeling groggy, Yunho managed to open his eyes. Then saw himself inside an unfamiliar place, he doesn't remember a thing. While recollecting some memories, a guy wearing a red hoodie came in, holding a tray of Hot Cocoa.

The male was confused, "who are you?" Yunho asked, looking at the guy who's face was painted with confusion, "I'm Mingi..?" He answered, one brow raising. At the mention of the name, memories flashed inside his mind within a second.

"Shit. Why am I here?! Me and Jiwon.. broke up.. this is too many to process."

He thought, memories is still waving inside his mind, driving him crazy. "Take a rest, I found you at the streets." Mingi noted, smiling at him.

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