My Name is Libby and this is the story of how I almost commented scuiced

I lay on my bed listening to my music 'It's almost time for me to make everyone happy I won't be here no more' as the song ended I reambered something a man surrounded by robots
I asked one of my friends who it was they told me who it was then I looked him up "Why am I doing this I won't be here anymore I'm going to kill myself" I see everything that has been happening to me since I transferred to VJH (I was in Junior high) I been made fun of for being myself and being over weight and being from a different school "Haha your second week and still no friends loser" three of the most popular girls their beautiful and skinny im fat and ugly I fight back my tears "N-no I'm really shy so" they laugh then walk away what makes things worse is that I never cared about it til I was 13 it hurts even worse every day I get home from school I wanted to cut my skin I want to starve myself til I'm beautiful I didn't I only ate one meal a day but it was very small like and apple or three grapes I never at lunch or break at school or dinner at home my mom would give me my plate I would let my dog Dakoda in my room and let him eat it or I would give it to my dog Rebel I would constantly check my weight I only lost 1 or 2 pounds or gain 6 even though I walked down my street and back to my house I just stopped eating after that soon but i got sick and started eating one meal again I did make friends at school I dated my childhood friend but he broke up with me cause "He was getting bullied for dating an ugly fat girl who doesn't deserve to live" I sit on my bed and cry then I went to the bathroom picked up the razer shaking with tears I dropped the razer and cried none stop I was home alone "I wanna die I wanna die" I kept repeating to myself every day my smile was fake my laugh nothing was real "Elizabeth let's take a picture for Granny" I sighed took the picture thinking 'This is the last time they will see my smile because tomorrow I'll kill myself' I sit on my bed listening to my favorite songs one last time I sighed taking my headphones out writing my note for my family "Im sorry but this place isn't for me I don't deserve to be here no more I'm usless and unneeded even though I'm gone I will watch over all of you'll stay in my broken heart forever I was born at the wrong time I love you" I lay it on my bed and then I remembered the picture of that man

his name was Markiplier I looked him up and couldn't stop laughing after I watched two videos I forgot about scuiced he's the reason why I'm alive why I dont cut or comment suicide he's my flashlight now my smiles and laughs are real he's the reason I want to be alive thank you Mark I love you and I always will and I'll see you in the next video buh-bye

Heres the video I watched that saved my life