Sam POV

My heart still pounding like crazy ever since I talk to him. I'm coming home with unstable step, my legs are shaking too.

" I'm home". Taking my shoes off and my lil sis coming out greeting me with a big smile on her face.

" Diner is ready, do you want to eat now? Dad and mom have hang out a couple of hours. There is only you and me"

I'm tiredly answer her " Hi Lily, I'll have it later, I'm a little tired, I'm gonna head to my room. ".

" Aww, don't be like that. I have tried hard to make the dinner and even make the meatball spaghetti you like. I guess you have a bad day"
I'm not answering her and go right up stair to my room. I hear her voice downstair " Remember to eat, or I won't cook for you anymore. Stupid bro"

She threatened me, kind of cute, right. She is a good sis but I don't want to see her now. You can say she is a true beauty, not only her appearance but also her personality. She always cheer me up when I'm feeling down and trying to make me laugh. It's worked every time.

I lay on my bed thinking about the situation I got with Edward.
Oh my god, oh my god, I can't believe I had said that to him. I barely talk to him and now I forces him to date me. This is so wrong. Now I'm embarrassed, how can I face him tomorrow.

I have love him for 5 years. I even try to get into the same university with him. In high school, I never talk to him, just looking from a far and that satisfied me enough. I don't know when I had love him. It's not like I'm gay but every time I look at him, my heart beating real fast that one time I think my heart has jumping out of my chest.

When we about to graduate, I stupidly send him a letter inside his locker. But you know what the craziest part, I send him a letter write by invisible ink. Haha, I think I maybe insane that time. I'm so shy and scare that he would reject me right away when he know me who I was. I know that letter would just be a junk to him, It's blank by the way. But at that time, I still hope that he can figure it and go to the place I wait him.
In the 'not see anything' letter, I told him to go to the fountain in the middle of the central park. I hopelessly wait for him for a f*cking 3 hours and no one came up. I'm so pathetic, I still remember how my body felt cold and the hurt inside my chest that time.

After that, I don't feel like talking to anybody. My family had been very worry about me but they can't stop the pain in my heart. But my little sister is the one who has never give up on me. Everyday she came in my room and tried to cheer me up, cooking food for me, talk about funny things happen in her school. I really appreciate, for a while, I became normal again but never tell my sister why I behave like that. I thinks she respect that and never question me.

Until midnight, I head downstair to the kitchen, open the fridge and see my spaghetti. I take it out and put it in the microwave. Aw, it still very delicious, that is my chef. I think I have been upsetting her, maybe tomorrow I will buy some of her favorite doughnuts.
Well, if tomorrow have nothing bad, I will definitely buy her, but seem like it not gonna happen
---------------------------------------------- This is the night after Sam told Edward to date him. I want Sam to be a cute, shy big boy. I hope you like him too, maybe he's a little depressed. But that ok, everything will change ^_^.
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