You had absolutely no idea what to do. You so badly wanted to scream for Russell, but you knew she would have blood dripping from your throat in seconds if you made a peep.

You began to breathe heavier, and heavier.

'Sister... '

A sharp pain in the back of your head came out of nowhere.

Memories flooded in, overcrowding your, at the moment, brittle state of mind.

It felt like an overpowered stone castle finally coming to it's downfall, crumbling into nothing but suffocating clouds of dust.

And then there was nothing

You had been once again, left completely alone, suffering in your own head.

You just sat there. You watched your mother die.

You could have helped her, that's what the girl hitting and screaming at you on your side wanted.

But that's not what you wanted.

Why?

Was it because she had allowed your drunk of a father to force himself onto you, Beat you, destroy everything about you....

You knew he did the same to her. But never to Katya, you made sure of that. He had hit her once when you weren't around. But it was nothing too serious.

One day, your mother could not take it anymore. You would never forgive her for leaving the two of you with him. Things only got worse after that, of course.

But when you had turned 18, a man had offered you a way out. You had a choice to stay with your stister or join the Russian military.

You had spent many years after that with Perseus, as some sort of apprentice. You thought the mission was for the greater good, that's what he had led you on to believe, for 7 years. He just wanted to destroy the world from his own selfish need to be in power, and he used you to help him get there.

And he just replaced you with her... Is that what Adler was doing as well?

'Yeah.....Unimportant'

"Don't do this Katya.. We where both with him for years. You have to know what he's doing is wrong. "

You attempted to reason with her as your hands went around her forearms

"Oh dear, don't try to seem like the 'good guy' now. I have been waiting for this moment my entire life, this has nothing to do with Perseus. "

Grunting, you had forced her arms forward while your body went back, and you slipped out of her Weak grip.

With a knife no longer pressed against your neck, you hastily turned around to grab her right arm that was coming to stab you.

"Get over yourself, I did nothing to you!"

"You took my mother from me! Then you left me with our father! how can you say that's nothing" She pushes forward landing you on the couch, she got on top continuing trying to drive the knife into your cheek.

"Her choise was not my fualt, and what the fuck was I supposed to do! I couldn't stay, he raped me! And he would have killed me, and it's not like the two of us were all, buddy-buddy anyway. You hated me, and you made that pretty clear. "  To distract her, you kicked her between the legs and rolled off the couch. Before you could brace for Impact you were now on top of her with a knife in your arm.

Both of you winced, you a little more considering there was a knife in your arm.

"You think he wouldn't have killed me, selfish bitch" She went to yank the knife out of your arm but you had jolted back. Quickly trying to push her down while standing up, you looked at the knife trying to decide if bleeding out was worth killing her or not.

'I'll find another way' you thought as you kicked her in the face.

"We all have problems Katya. You had gotten out anyway, and you were with Perseus for 3 years while I was! Why didn't you try this then?" She groaned in pain as you kicked her again.

"Perseus favors you, who knows why... I was going to watch you fall. But then your dumb ass got shot in the head by one of our own. So taking that poor boy Adler from you was the next best thing."
You wanted to snap her neck at this point, but she will get what's coming to her in due time.

You looked back over to the drink cooler, sparking an idea.

"-I'll continue to distract your team, eventually they will have to die too. In the mean time, you are going to just have to disappear, I'm going to bring you to perseus" She was going to lung at you, but you swiftly moved to the left making her fall into a counter. Before she even turned around you grabbed some expensive bottle of champagne and shattered it over her head.

She screamed in agony, holding her head in her hands. With the top of the bottle still in your hand, it made for the perfect dagger. You where about to aim and go for her chest but the door was slammed open, revealing an angered at you for nothing Russel Adler, woods was behind him to.

"Bell... " he said passive aggressively. Does he even know what had happened.

'He probably thinks I turned on him. '

Katya began to get up in an attempt to go over to him, crying, but you pushed her back down placing the broken glass at her neck.

"How does it feel sister" you asked in sarcasm " you should have killed me in my sleep when you had the chance"

"Fuck you, Svetlana" she spoke in Russian, while pathetically crying on the floor. Her makeup and hair was a mess all over her face, you assumed yours was to.

'Svetlana...' Wide eyed looks were shared between you and Adler, he was now slowly walking closer to you and you broke eye contact.

Katya darkly laughed at your surprised expressions. "You didn't even know her name did you?" She smirked in Adlers direction then back at you " you poor, poor girl" she mocked "he didn't even care enough about you to get your name!" She looked back his way "still doesn't... "

It took everything in your power not to make a clean cut through her vocal cords at the moment.  You had figured out your name about 15 minutes ago, it was just overwhelming and strange to hear it out loud after so long.

Could you even go back to being... Her?

You felt a warm calloused hand place on your shoulder, Russell had crouched next to you and slowly reached to grab your wrist.

"We can't kill her yet" he tried to make reasoning eye contact with you, but you had been participating in an intense staring contest with your Two Faced whore sister.

"Why is that" your voice was completely dead. You knew she most likely told Perseus where you were, and that made your skin crawl. The punishment for treason isn't death, and you knew once Adler got what he wanted, and it came down to it, he could very well hand you over just to lure them out. And of that didn't work out, new nightmares would be added to your list every day until you were done away with.

"She knows things we don't, we can see what we can pull out and then you can do- well, what ever you want" woods chimed in

"I remember, woods" you snapped and moved your gaze to him "what can you possibly need from her that don't know." you raised your eyebrow and looked over at Katya doing the same.

"Well for starters I-" you had cut her off by quickly chucking the top of the bottle into the wall cuasing it to shatter into pieces.

You grabbed her by the scalp making her squeal, and brought her closer to your face. "I will bring your fucking head to him myself" you lazily threw her back into the ground and stood up "lucky bitch... " you mumbled and walked over to the cooler grabbing another bottle of alcohol not caring to look at what it is.

"Bell." Adler called out to you but you barley heard the echoy voice. Once again you where trapped inside your head.

You could feel the rush of anxiety tingling over your skin. It made your heart seem like it was beating to slow, but too fast at the same time.

'I remember'

you breathed a bit heavier, and echoed voices could be heard. Adler was telling woods to get Katya loaded in the van that was now back in the ally. You where making your way out the door but Russell was still following you.

'I can finally remember.. '

"Bell! " you couldn't even hear him behind you over the blaring music. After flicking the cap off, you enjoyed, what tasted like, vodka. That was until a man grabbed your shoulder and turned you to face him.

"Where are you going bell? " you could very faintly hear him, but you didn't even bother to try and figure out if what you heard was actually what he said.

You're slowly feeling a bit claustrophobic, so you smacked away his hand and you could swear he said "ochie". After finding the nearest counter and setting down the Smirnoff, you pushed past more people to get to the front entrance. You where hoping that shedding the alcohol will make him get off your back, you had been severely wrong.

After breaking through the doors you where met with almost blinding lights. It looked very similar to Reno, but all the lights never failed to put a small smile on your face. You had never been on the actual Vegas Strip, Don Rivera doesn't have territory here, not to mention it was quite the drive anyway.

"Hey, can you stop running from me. " you had sighed as that voice had pulled you from your thoughts. Turning around you where surprised to see he was significantly closer than expected.

"Russell, what do you want from me"  you examined his face, and goddamn, you hated to admit it but the way all the neon lights had reflected on his scars and his sunglasses, made you want to melt right then and there. And you so badly wanted to touch it like he was a work of art or something.

It was like everytime you saw him something just awoke inside you, and you felt like you needed to run from it as fast as you could, but you didn't want to. You couldn't, not this time.

"Uhm- stop...looking at me like that. Are you even listening? " you had frowned at him, you hadn't been listening. But something else invaded your attention anyway.

"Adler?.. When you opened the door, you looked like you where mad at me." He furrows his brows, wondering where you where taking this. "Did you think I had turned on you? "

You felt like a pathetic child asking him this. Like it mattered, Katya was right, he didn't care about you.

"Your 'sister' is an idiot. Her mic was on.... I wouldn't have thought that either way, to be clear."  your mouth fell open a bit as he continues "I trus-"

Screeching tire tracks could be suddenly heard, pulling around the corner of the building and stopping in front of you two.  The door slid open revealing and annoyed woods. Park, Mason, and Katya where already gone.

"Can you two have a conversation later, Mason said the last one who gets back has to do dishes this week! " you shifted a surprised gaze back to the other man in question and giggled, then proceeded to get into the van.

You where back at the safe house currently couped up in your room. You told them you had more information, but asked if it could all wait until morning. So after park patched you up, you came back here to get some rest. That was not going to come easy in the slightest.

There was lots of things that you where just now remembering, and it made you feel like it just happened. You knew it didn't, and you felt like you just wanted to slam your head up against the wall to make it go away faster. This method would also make your peers feel the need to tie you to a chair again, so not an option.

You couldn't stop thinking about the memories of your father..... What he did to you. Your eyes started to swell with tears, something that hasn't happened in.... Awhile.

You didn't want to let them fall. Because you knew once you did, they wouldn't stop. Though you felt like if you did, maybe you wouldnt be so 'in your own head'. Maybe you could move on. Or you'd just sit there in this reoccuring horrific dream, untill someone killed you anyway.  

You heard a soft thuding noise on the door that you had been leaning up against. you took a deep breath in order to collect youself before you stood up from the ground.  turning twords it you wondered who was even still up and not working at this hour, and then you opened the door.
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