Seokjin's

We didn't reach the hotel but instead, we reach their park and leisure place. This was built by their great grandfather. It only started like a house in the province and later on, as generation pass, they developed it into something more. Kim's go here whenever they want to be in private. This place is their sanctuary, nobody is allowed here except for family members and their friends. For them this is paradise. Away from the flashes of cameras every love they make. Here, they can be themselves and no one is here to judge them.

Looking at the clock, I knew we have been traveling for 4 hours. I felt a little shy towards my boss. I think I have slept for more than 3 hours. I am feeling embarrassed right now. What if I drooled? What if I kept my mouth open while I sleep? What if I look ugly? I don't know what I look like when I sleep. I can't ask him about that because that would be too awkward.

I'm starting to have thoughts, not intrusive thoughts but embarrassing thoughts. I am feeling really shy. I feel like I snore when I was asleep.

"We're here." He said.

"Sir? Yes sir." I said. I had a hard time I'm unbuckling my seatbelt. My boss only looked at me and is contemplating whether if he should help or not. I flinched when he touched my hand. he is staring at me. I know my eyes are widening right now. He quickly removes his hand and raised them as if he is surrendering.

"I didn't mean to. I'm sorry." He said. "I just wanted to help."

"I-It's okay sir," I said. Finally, I unbuckled my seatbelt. I heard him sigh but he didn't say anything. We ran out of the car. The uniformed ladies greeted us.

"Why are we here?" I asked.

"Jungkook change the location and he said that we should be meeting in this place. Dad wants us to. Then we'll fly to Singapore tomorrow at 9 pm."

I nodded my head. I looked around and saw some of the Kim's. Some are biking, running, and just having fun, stepped away from their strict demeanor. They just look happy here. Even Sir Taehyung, his vibe looked so different here than when we are in the city.

"Here is my cabin. We'd be staying here in the meantime. Namjoon's private plane will come here and we'll fly there to Singapore." He explained to me. I just nodded. "Let's go inside. I bet you're hungry. I asked them to prepare our lunch."

I was in deep thought if we are going to sleep here TOGETHER. Just thinking about it makes me anxious. I bit my lip and gulped hard.

Suddenly, I started having these sexual intrusive thoughts about my boss. I never liked having sexual thoughts about someone else. That's why I always prevent myself from having an interest in someone because of the thoughts running in my head. Those things start from a simple hand-holding to making love, to rough sex, spanking, tying my partner, and hurting him while doing it. EMBARRASSING!

Sex is dirty but whenever I have a crush, I don't seem to mind. My mind is making me think of things I never thought and never in a million years will do because... I can't!

"Are you alright?" He asked. "You look pale."

"I'm alright, sir. I'm but just thirsty." I lied. We entered his cabin. It's beautiful, I feel like I'm inside a house in the middle of the forest. It's beautiful, the ambiance is very rustic. The furniture inside were all smelling rich.

In the middle of the living room, there is a picture of their family. Sir Taehyung, Sir Hoseok, and their parents. They were sitting on a picnic mat and they were all smiles. But what captured my eyes aside from them was the beautiful Island and the white sand.

"That's Oahu. That's the island where we grew up in."

I didn't know that.

"Is it beautiful there, sir?"

"Super." He nodded and looked at me.

I smiled. I had always planned on living alone. I have already started to look for properties here in Korea. Islands to be specific. I already know that I will be living alone. I am preparing for my future. I want it to be somewhere quiet, beautiful, away from the city, and away from the people I can probably hurt.

"I want to see it someday."

"Oh, you will." He said. I looked at him. He sounded so sure.

I slowly nodded.

"Hi!" I saw Sir Taehyung frowned when he heard Sir Hoseok's voice. He smacked Taehyung's head earning a glare from the other and then Sir Hoseok smiled at me.

"How's your trip? Did my brother bother you or bored you anyway?"

"No, Sir. Sir Taehyung is very accommodating." I said.

"That's good. Come on let's eat!" He said. While walking towards the dining table, I was behind them and I can see them bicker over the smallest things. They seemed to be so close.

We sat at the dining table located in the garden. Only the three of us were there. Sir Hoseok was only wearing a white robe. He looks so handsome. His skin is very healthy too. I bet he never had a pimple before. His hair, was not curly but it has waves. His eyes were dark too, like Sir Taehyung.

"Hi ... Why are you staring?" He asked me with a smile. I got flustered.

"Sorry, Sir. You're just too handsome."

"Of course! I know right!? Like OMG. You know, I can't blame men and women for wanting to bed me. I'm a Kim. The surname, the perks, the money, plus me. A total package, right? Then you'll think about what in it for me? I'm only in for the sex, Seokjin. Have you ever tried sex?"

"Hoseok Hyung! That's so --"

"I haven't, Sir Hoseok."

"You are missing your life!" He said while laughing. Sir Taehyung had this look on his face. Like he's disgusted with his brother.

"I don't know that. I mean, sex is dirty." I said. Sir Hoseok laughed harder.

"The dirtier the sex, the better! The two of us can attest to that, right TaeTae?"

"I don't know." Sor Taehyung said. I widened my eyes. I remembered him having sex in his kitchen. He was eating out that woman! My face reddened.

"Change topic!" Sir Taehyung said. "I will get coffee. Maybe you'll get shy, Hoseok. The words coming out of your mouth are ..." He clicked his tongue and left.

When we were left alone, Sir Hoseok stared at me.

"How old are you when you were diagnosed?" He asked. I looked at him, "I'm a shrink, Jin. The moment I stepped into your bathroom, I knew. Are you mysophobic? Do you know that Namjoon is one? He has mild OCD. He is only mysophobic he hasn't experienced having intrusive thoughts."

My mouth parted. I always saw how clean and organized he is and I thought he was just normal. I didn't know he also has OCD. Well, mild OCD.

"Good for him," I said.

"Are you there right now?"

"Not now, but I've experienced having unwanted thoughts. But I know I will die alone."

"You have your family."

"I don't have a family anymore," I said. They would never accept me.

"I'm sorry." He said. "You know, when I'm stressed I tend to have sex." He laughed again. "But don't judge me, okay? I'm not a whore. But whenever I have the chance, I fuck someone. It felt good. But since you don't have a boyfriend, maybe you should try Taehyung."

My eyes widened.

"SIR!" I hissed. My face redden.

"We grew up together. I know he's good you'll enjoy it. And plus, he's clean. Just make him drink pineapple juice for a week so when you swallow it'll taste sweet."

"OH MY GOD!" I held my face in embarrassment. He just laughed. Sir Taehyung came back and he looked at us with wonder.

"What did you do?"

"I told him to try and have sex with you cause your very good at it."

"Why do you like to embarrass my guest Hoseok!? He can't even eat because of what you're saying!"

"Well, do you want to eat my brother, Jin?"

"HOSEOK!!!"

"Oops, TaeTae will die out of high blood. I gotta go!"

He stormed off laughing. He left us in the garden. My face is flushed and my intrusive thoughts are starting again.

Oh god!