TW//self harm, depression, suicidal ideation,.Once upon a time, Magnus became his escape. He had turned to his lover for help instead of turning to his blades, for a while. But Magnus was gone now, and he wasn't coming back. Alec had driven him away, and he wished he could take everything back, but he couldn't, he couldn't, and it was tearing him apart every second of every day.…
"You look absolutely beautiful," Alec mumbled between kisses."So do you," Magnus whispered, pulling Alec into his room. "I can't wait to show you just how beautiful you are." He winked and Alec blushed as they disappeared into Magnus's dimly lit room.…
As she stood and calmly watched the blood drip down, there was a war raging inside of her head, two separate battles that half of her was winning and half of her was losing, and she didn't know which side she wanted to give in to, so she turned to the only thing she knew how to do, and she let the metal comfort her.…
**TRIGGER WARNING- EATING DISORDERS/PHRASES THAT RELATE TO SELF HARM**(can be read as fan fiction or teen fiction)She craved the skeletal bodies, the ribs showing through, the collar bones sticking out. The thighs that didn't touch. The pretty faces with graceful features. The slender fingers, the sharp jawline, the small shoulders. The number on the scale reading 100. 99. 98. She needed the pain, the satisfaction the sharp pangs brought, the excruciating anguish the starving put her through. The elation, the high. It made her who she was. She was no longer a person; her eating disorder had become her.…
"Um, so I had a little speech prepared, but I lost it on the way here and couldn't find it. Typical me, I know. You mean the world to me, Clary, and I can't stand the thought of ever losing you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I hope you want to spend yours with me. So, Clary, will you marry me?"…
As soon as he was inside and the door was shut, he leaned against it and slid down into a crumpled heap, threading his fingers through his hair. He could still breathe, but his heart was racing and thumping against his chest like a caged animal trying to escape and he wanted it to stop, he wanted it all to fucking stop, "please," he whispered to himself. (Nico w/ anxiety)…
Better off Dead: Alec slowly approached the edge. Gazing down into the shimmering dark waters, he ran his fingers over the cool metal of the railing of the Brooklyn bridge. He stepped over it and held on like his life depended on it. It did. Song Unsung: He could never have that one last memory. He knew that. He just couldn't go on without Magnus. He wasn't going to live without Magnus. His life wasn't worth it. And if that was how it was going to end, he couldn't stop it. He was gone. Alone: He didn't know what he was going to do now. What was he expected to do? What do you do when you lose the one person you love the most? All he knew for sure was that he was nothing without Magnus in his life. Could you check my pulse for me to see if I'm alive?…
Fifty years after Alec's death, Magnus finds a box stashed in his closet with a note saying it's for him. He opens it up to see what's inside and is brought to tears by what he finds._________________________________________________________________________________Magnus stared down at the dark box that sat in his lap, almost afraid of what it contained. He had found it buried deep in the back of his closet. On the top read a printed note that said To Magnus.He cautiously lifted the lid and pulled out one out of many pieces of papers. Unfolding the letter, he pulled his legs up to him and wrapped one arm around them. He immediately recognized the messy, scrawly handwriting of Alec. He blinked back tears.Magnus,If you're reading this I'm probably dead, the black ink read. I don't know how old I'll be when I die (though it will most likely be soon) but I'm almost nineteen now.I'm writing this because, when I do die, I don't want you to forget me. Please don't forget me. I know you'll probably date many more people, and have many more lovers after me, and that's okay- I'm grateful for however long it is we get to spend together now. But please don't forget me.You might be reading this a day after I die, a year after I die, five years, ten years, twenty years after I die. But I want you to know that whatever happened, I didn't- I don't- want to leave you. I don't ever want to leave you.…
"Annabeth!" Percy shouted. "Annabeth!"She tried to move, tried to help him, but she couldn't- she was stuck. "Percy," she cried out, feeling hot tears drip down. "I'm sorry, I can't!""Annabeth," Percy yelled again, but this time his lips didn't move. Annabeth closed her eyes. Was he dead already?…
I rewrote my old story and this is the result. Thank you for reading!As she walked, it began to rain and she groaned. Lovely.She considered turning back to Brooklyn House but decided against it- if she had to stay cooped up in there any longer she'd end up murdering a person or two. Blasting Carter's face off with a ha-di spell seemed like a fun idea right about now.She yanked her phone and earphones out of her pocket and turned on her music. Instantly the unique voice of Billy Talent began playing and she walked a little faster, hoping to find shelter. She turned the corner and made out a cemetery up ahead. She bit her lip, but then ducked into it, deciding that the shelter of Anubis's territory was a lot better then standing in the cold rain.…
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I flinched as he shoved me down on my bed, throwing himself on top of me./ "Alec, please, wake up!" Alec sat up, knocking Magnus's hand over./ "No, no, I'm so sorry, Magnus," Alec hastened to say. "I didn't mean it!"/ Magnus looked into the eyes of the one he loved. Those innocent, adorable, blue eyes. "I promise."/ Rated T. Warning mentions/dreams of rape.…
Well, like the title suggest, it's Just Another Sanubis Love Story! Please read! Chapter three and four up! Lot's of Sanubis, lot's of Zarter. Add in some Felissa (Alyssa and Felix) and some Juliazz (Jaz and Julian)! Please review!…