"Why are you crying?"

Hoseok asked me. Maybe he can't stand the constant tears to fall on my eyes. He is still driving. He is taking me home. I don't want to but I needed to. He said Mom and Dad is not home yet and I can rest. I agreed to not make the discussions long.

"I believed that he didn't loved me." I said with sadness laced in voice.

"Tsk. How do you say that he loved you?"

"Those words he said. Those Arabic fucking words!" I scoffed at him. "Ana la Yumkin alssamah lak bialrrahill. 'Ana la 'urid 'an 'atruk."

"Ah! That? It says. I cannot let you go. I don't want to leave. He might really loved you but he was put in a situation, Jin. It's up to you how long are you gonna think about your what ifs?"

My heart squeezed hearing what it meant. Why the fuck would he say that?

I twisted Hoseok's ears. "Ouch! It's not my fault that You and that Old Man Taehyung slash Arthritis man is complicated! Tsk! Seokjin, this is what I'm telling you. It's up to you if you want to live in the past or embrace your future. I always see this phrase and it's right that it became my favorite ... Always keep moving forward."

I let go of his ear and found myself smiling. "That's my favorite too."

"See we have a lot of similarities! We are close to not being human because we're a match!" He winked at me and giggled.

We parked at my home and he said his goodbye. I called him again.

"Yes?"

"The offer still stands, Hoseok. When we're ready. Me and you."

He smiled at me and my heart beat fast. "If you're ready." He waved goodbye and left.

I went inside and walked straight to my parents room. He's right. They're not here. I was about to go out again when I noticed my Mom's notebook that Mom always write on. I picked that up and sat on the bed.

I opened it and saw her entries.

September 09 - Hades told me he loves me. I loved him. He is my life. He completes me.

Mama is really sweet.

I kept flipping pages and saw another highlighted entries. I noticed that it was my birthday.

December 04 - I knew ... Jin is having an affair. I don't know what to do. He has a hickey on the neck. I was scared to ask.

My mouth parted. I continued reading.

January 11 - I had him followed.

January 13 - He's breaking my heart.

My tears fell.

January - 25 - It's Kim Taehyung.

My hands are shaking. Mama knew!?

I kept on reading and I saw a note that is highlighted in red. It seemed to be the most important note.

February 04 - I went to Greece. I need to test the waters. I was right. He was having a relationship with Kim Taehyung. I followed him to his glasshouse and waited till the sun goes down to talk to Taehyung. I talked to him and warned him. I need him to stay away from Jin.

He was still a baby.

The man acted like he was really in love with my son. Was he? He said that his heart was on Seokjin's hand. Should I believe him? I needed him to stay away from my son. I want him to break her heart.

February 11 - Jin came home crying.

I was crying hard. I hugged Mama's notebook. I don't know what to say.

And then, suddenly, I remembered Hoseok.

"Maybe he has a situation where he can't still love you freely."

"Seokjin?" I heard Mama's voice. I looked at her. She was standing by the door. I stood up.

"You want Taehyung to break my heart? You knew, Mama! You knew! You decided for me! Haven't you thought that maybe I really do love him and he loves me too?" I cried. I let go of the notebook in my hands. Mama is crying.

"I'm sorry, Seokjin ..."

"Sorry can't change what already happened! I hate you!"

We are both crying. Mama hugged me.

"Don't hate me, baby, please ..."

"Let me go! Mama I hate you! Let me go!"

"I'm sorry, Jin. I'm sorry! You were young and I'm scared that you might get hurt. I thought I was protecting you."

"I should be protecting myself from you!"

I walked out. I can still hear her sob in her room. Papa and Soobin saw me walked out of my mother's room. They exchanged looks and went inside. While me, I locked myself up in my room.

How can she do this? I thought she's my best friend? She broke my heart!