read the a/n for an important announcement

I turned around running toward Dad wrapping my arms around him before giving myself into the tears.

I don't understand what really caused the fight- all I know is that.

He didn't feel comfortable- after all this time- he didn't feel like he could tell that to me.

Instead, he tells his enemy.

God he didn't even want me there - what was I doing?

I'm the worst soulmate.

"It's ok I'm sure you'll tell me later," Dad picked me up, setting me down on a bench my face turned toward the night sky.

It's brilliant- it's so unphased by the world around it.

I wish I could be like that- to even be a small portion of it a single star would be magical.

To be a star...

"What do I have that you don't have? What is it?" I could hear Bakugo asking Midoriya.

He sounds so distant.

"You don't see it?" Midoriya muttered weakly, "you have so many things but most importantly you have..." Midoriya trailed off seemingly unable to answer.

I'm too weak to even roll over and look at them.

"Y/N?" Bakugo asked his voice filled with some indescribable emotion.

What?

"Yes you have Y/N," Midoriya sighed.

I'm his most important thing?

I rolled over onto my side facing the both of them my eyes still filled with tears.

Am I?

"Were you really that stupid?" Dad scoffed whacking Bakugo.

Was he- if he didn't trust me with those secrets he didn't trust me with him.

"I don't understand why is Y/N my most important thing?" Bakugo stammered standing up.

I don't either.

"It's because she's always there for you- she will always listen," Midoriya sat up slowly.

Well only if it's important.

"I don't care what the hell you're talking about but don't take your soulmate- my daughter for granted and don't make her feel shitty," Dad barked out scowling at Bakugo. "I will not love you unconditionally I am not your soul father."

I love you Bakugo.

"She loves you unconditionally- you're lucky to have her and she's lucky to have you," Midoriya mumbled staring earnestly at Bakugo.

Thank you for caring about my relationship Midoriya.

"God Y/N I'm so sorry I should've- I should've recognized that earlier," Bakugo rushed over to the bench kneeling in front of it so we were eyelevel.

No don't be sad it's ok.

"I'm sorry I wasn't able to see all that- I'm sorry you didn't feel like you could tell me how you felt, and I'm sorry I didn't ask," I blurted out reaching out a hand to touch his face.

I wonder if our relationship would have been any different if you hadn't slapped me.

Maybe if you just gently caressed my face instead.

It would be so boring don't you think.

"It's ok you did nothing wrong," Bakugo extended an arm his hand resting on the area that that mark used to be.

It's ok.

"I love you a lot you know that?" I asked leaning toward him.

You'd better.

"Sure but you know that I love you more right?"

There's no way I love you the mostest.

"If you love me that much you'd better take me to the zoo all the time!" I cheered my arm falling to his neck pulling him even closer to me.

We can see the hippos !!

"And if I do that you'll have to try some of my favorite drink," He smiled breathing me in.

NO ITS DISGUSTING.

"I AM NOT DOING THAT! MAYBE AT YOUR FUNERAL!"

"So that's what we're calling weddings these days?" He teased helping me up off the bench.

YOU'RE MOVING SO FAST.

"I mean if you want our wedding to be your funeral we won't have to wait long," I muttered under my breath walking toward the dorm with him.

I can arrange that right now if you want.

"Hey when I become a pro hero and you become my sidekick-" Bakugo stopped to laugh.

Go on-

"I AM NOT WEARING A SEXY MAID OUTFIT WHILE I FIGHT CRIME!" I shrieked blushing at the thought of it.

THATS GROSS.

"What no I never said that shut your trap," Bakugo rolled his eyes at me. "Are we going to have time to raise a family?"

THATS EVEN GROSSER.

"You want kids????" I laughed at him pushing his arms off of me.

The big strong man wants babies!!!

"Well I mean- yes," he blushed smiling slightly. "What is there anything wrong with that?" He sent a scowl my way his attitude shifting suddenly.

Nope nothing it just seems out of character <3

"We're high schoolers," I rolled my eyes at him opening the dormitory door.

Kids are nice but also I'm scared of crying.

You do it a lot :///

I'm scared of myself.

"Yeah you're right but eventually," Bakugo sighed joining me in the warm dormitory.

I closed my eyes and thought about the past Y/N a girl so full of trepidation - a girl so scared to love.

The past Bakugo so cold and strange like the dark expanses of space.

I breathed in and I felt myself relax in the soft smell of Bakugo- his clothing, his hair, his smile it was all so warm.

That past Y/N was foolish, her soulmate was amazing.

He was the vast expanses of space littered with stars, planets, black holes that she had yet to explore- he was full of so much more than she could imagine.

And yet-

And yet-

He chose her, a tiny little planet drifting off in the middle of nowhere.

And gave it life.

"What the hell are you daydreaming about?" Bakugo asked gently poking my nose.

Life is beautiful.

"I was just thinking about how you're going to love brushing your teeth after breakfast!" I smiled up at him lacing our fingers together.

The universe favored a single planet- I'm so lucky it chose me.

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not to be sappy or anything but im really sad this is ending. for me as cliche as it may sound my readers are my universe im really happy that you decided to read trepidation and follow this dumb author (planet hehe) on my journey of figuring out and developing my writing style. there are so many people i want to thank but really-

its you guys and im sure you know that

NOW ONTO THE FUN STUFF!! im sure a lot of you are wondering what's next! I've started writing another bakugo x reader thats rlly cool its a gang au but its mostly my normal crackhead nonsense. Please check it out! It's called veil and I've put a lot of work into it. 

okok im doneee

So I guess this is it this is the last chapter of trepidation <3 Thank you for enjoying it I really cant thank you enough

- Ai