"i'm going to kill myself
maybe you should too
we could die together
then our love would be true"

she was an angel
an angel just for me
upon others,
she brought misery
and me,
she drowned in ecstasy

my lady was not to be understood
she was not to be deciphered and tamed
she was not to be deceived and provoked
she was mine to be loved
and that, she was

there were nights
when all she did was hold a knife
right at my throat
she said,
"don't sing me any lullabies
or you'll kiss that throat of yours goodbye"

she loathed my voice
and i never knew why
the curses she spat
all those terrible lies
i loved her in her darkest times
and boy, were there more of those
than the days she would smile

"if you and me
were meant to be
you'll pull the trigger
you'll set us free"

she said these things
almost every single day
and i never complained
for i was scared she'd walk away

"samantha, oh, sweet samantha
my lovely donna
you are one of a kind
no one understands the beauty of your mind
but me, the love of your life
that is why you're mine
and you'll always be
for the love you've given me
is a love without treachery"

she sought reassurance
in every step i took
unwilling to let her heart be torn to pieces
if i decided i wanted someone else's
and so she insisted
on suicide for the pleasure
to what seemed to me was plain
and simple torture

i could not let her go
i could not be the reason she breaks
so i stayed and stayed and stayed
but when autumn came
and happy samy had gone to fade
the storm blew her away
she became maddening for me
she was too insane
she couldn't wait, no
she couldn't
she wanted the love that never existed in the first place
the one filled with sacrifices
the one filled with death
it was not the love i tried to give her
i did not want to lose my breath

so when she said, "i love you
i need you to know
if we run away together
i'll be yours forever
'cause we'll be in hell together"