(adj.) a person who is regularly unable to sleep.

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sometimes when i dream
my ghosts call out to me
late at night in bed
they lay next to me

that's why i hate sleeping
they remind me of the feeling
when they had control
over my body
made me do the things
i never wanted to be doing

i cry out in pain
but no one ever seems to hear
'cause i'm all alone
with the darkness and fear

i still know his name
and his horrifying face
it's been a whole year
but i'm still so afraid

i hate sleeping
i stay up 'til four in the morning
talking to strangers on the internet
who claim to feel the same thing

i hate being trapped
in the hold of a man
so i go to therapy
every tuesday

and i'm getting better
but i still get those dreams
at least once a month
i guess it takes time
everything does