Since then, I feel like Isaac avoids me more than normal, except time when I have to protect him. When he is going to the club, he won't call me and replace me with another bodyguard. I try hard not to think much about this, trying to convince myself that this is just job, once it finish, Caleb doesn't need me anymore, even if I'm his mate or not.

Recently, I am starting to have some bad dreams in my sleep, sometimes it would be amnesia and when I could sleep, it always nightmares. I wake up with cold sweat on my forehead, the bedsheets soaked and my whole body shaking. It's been a long time since I dream. It always about how my parents die, my young self standing in the black space, blood on my hands pouring and make the floor under me become all red. I look down and see my family corpse, enemies who died by my hand. Some unidentifiable voice echoes.

<You murderer>

<You think someone would love you>

<You ugly monster>

<Why don't you die>

<Nobody want you, they will all leave you>

Then Isaac stand in front of me, giving me a disgust glare like I'm something not supposed to be exist in this world. He points at me

"Why you are my mate"

Then he walks away, leaving me standing there, I try to scream his name over and over again. But he won't look back, just walked and walked. I try, try to reach my arm, move my leg, everything but I still can't catch up to him

Please

Don't leave me

I beg you

That is when I wake up. Today is the same, he's still avoiding me. I go to the garden again, letting myself relax a little bit on the green grass. The time I can spend with him gonna end soon, it's about time he will be the next leader. I want to stay beside him, just beside him is enough for me, I don't need him to like me back, just allow me to be with him is enough. It's my only wish. I hear small footsteps, look up and see one of the maid come to my place.

"Dear sir, Mr.Ewing has some business and waiting for you at his room"

I say nothing and start moving to the Ewing gang leader room. This room is still as impressive as I remember. In the middle of the room is his work dest and Isaac father is sitting there waiting for me.

"Sir, sorry for intruding. Is there anything you want to talk to me?"

"Caleb, you don't have to be so formal. Actually, I want to talk about Isaac. It's about time the ceremony begin and you will finish your job"

"Yes sir, I am fully understand. Based on our contract, I will leave and you will offer a new identity for me to live somewhere else"

"Yes, I'm glad you still remember. The problem is you're now Isaac mate, you think you can leave your mate behind and walk away?"

I pause a little bit:"Yes sir, it's the only thing I can do"

"I know it's a hard thing to do. I feel sorry for you Caleb, so I offer you one more thing"

Mr.Ewing takes out a card visit in his desk drawer and handed it to me. I take it and confused show on my face.

"After you done, contact that person and she will help you with the mate bonding"

"Sir, I don't understand"

"She is one of my acquaintances, she will make you forget the mate bonding and you can live normally like before, when you haven't meet Isaac"

"Forget?"

"Yes Caleb, forget everything. You can't never break the mate bond so the only thing to deal with it is by tricking fate. It's totally up to you Caleb, think throughout. It's your choice, to suffering with unrequited love or living a life you ever wanted"

Now I'm sitting on the bed, remember the word Mr.Ewing said, he is right, even if I can leave, there is no way I can bear the pain of abandon my mate. Why everything become like this, I never ask for something or anyone, why can't I just die without regret. It's the best option, I don't have to suffer anymore and Isaac...

He can be happy