a feeling or deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements, the achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired.

being prideful is a sin , but hating yourself is one too.
i don't trust enough to put my life in others hands, i wasn't taught to learn about others i thought i knew enough.

i wasn't aware of sensitivity or sanity.
i knew of damaged and delusion .
i don't know enough to put my faith in the world.

i did what i did not think of consequences or my life.
i was often misunderstood on my mind
i didn't really give a fuck either
i was having pity party in my body
not having the consideration of others feelings.

i made my bed and i'm laying in it, very comfortably and without any interruption.