I think there's no hope for me ..

I'm too deep in to this dark hole to climb..

I pray but I think god is ignoring me.

I've spilled to much of my own blood . I've made to many cuts and bruises..

I probably will be a banker , putting on my famous fake smile..

I would have to wear make up because I gave up on sleep .

I would have a flask in my purse .

Be in love with a man who would never love me .

Then by the age of 37 I would jump of a bridge because i finally got the balls to do the deed..

In my obituary it would be all lies ..

I will be crying walking into the gates of hell ..

Asking god to forgive me for my sins ..

But it's too late..

It's always to late..