Hello loves! Another update for you all, hope you enjoy! (Not proofread!! I'm trying to get better y'all I promise lol)

I thought that I was dreaming when you said you loved me...
...The start of nothing... had no chance to prepare couldn't see you coming.

We come into this world with a purpose.. we float throughout a spiritual timeline not knowing our purpose and some of us die still not knowing our purpose..

That's the way everyday goes, every time we have no control
If the sky is pink and white, if the ground is black and yellow

I am Laurent Bourgeois and I know my purpose.

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The sky looked like something off of a pastel canvas, purples and pinks mixed with oranges and yellows... it was a beautiful sight to witness. Lau exhaled laying back onto the flowered filled grass gazing up at the sky. His photogay bag discarded next to him filled with film and a camera that hadn't been used for years. He was a lawyer now who wanted to share his visions with the world, but through the lenses of his camera and his belief in justice. Photography would always be his first love, right next to dance of course. He viewed the world differently than everyone else, he saw the good in everyone, he also witnessed the bad but he always looked at things in a positive light. That's one thing some people couldn't do. Closing his eyes, he inhaled and exhaled the fresh air opening up his lungs to Mother Nature letting her breathe life into him. He'd meditated for the day already but would always except the extra nurturing she offered.

Life and freedom.. his favorite form of intoxication. He didn't need alcohol or any form of drugs to feel drunk or high. He could do that with his feelings of freedom alone. His afro growing upward towards the sun which in return kissed his melanin skin. His skin which smelled of brown sugar and was smooth like cocoa butter, the beautiful ink edged into his skin telling a story: a beautiful canvas he was. His cocoa brown eyes shined brighter each time the sunlight hit them. He was truly beautiful physically and spiritually. He oozed positivity and good energy drawing people to him to brighten their lives up for a bit. From his jazzy music taste to the way he dressed, he was unique in his own way. He would take the time to remember how his mother used to hate him taking photos of her all the time just to catch her hanging them up in her room or placing them in a photo album.

That she held close to her heart  

Larry on the other hand loved his photo being taken and Lau loved taking pictures of him, he had every single one he'd ever taken of him. His favorite one was of Larry standing in the hallway of their quaint little house staring off to the side, his hair in cornrows tucked underneath a folded red bandanna. He had been looking at Ray who was trying to decide which goggles would go with his outfit of the day, Larry was hard at work trying to pick between the black or the purple. He'd snapped the photo mid conversation smiling sheepishly when he was caught

"Man which one should I do? We got school in like twenty minutes" Larry hummed folding his arms across his chest tilting his head to the side. Black goes with anything you wear yet the purple would add a pop of color. Ray was clad in an oversized jersey with acid washed jeans paired with Jordans. The purple would compliment the red of the jersey but the black would make it pop, it would blend into his hair color too though. It was a very hard decision to him, he looked him over once again before making his choice "do the black with the gold trim, it would bring out the red but won't hide in your hair". Ray grinned nodding while pulling out the goggles Larry had described "you're a genius man!" He definitely was a genius especially to Lau who lurked around the corner. Holding up the camera their mother bought him for their birthday he waited for the right moment snapping the photo. The flash blowing his cover he gazed up making eye contact with Larry who grinned at him "gotcha" he made finger guns at him causing to laugh.

Those were the days...

You ain't a kid no more
We'll never be those kids again

We see the world for what it is now and the sky is definitely pink + White

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If I could see through walls
I could see you're faking
If you could see my thoughts
You would see our faces

Larry gazed up at the ceiling deep in thought, Lau was asleep upstairs he'd gotten home from his office a few hours ago. Larry had to get ready to meet Ray along with Reggie and he didn't have time for this conversation Gabrielle wanted to have. "What aren't you telling me!?" Her face was twisting up as she spoke through gritted teeth "Keep your voice down!" Larry warned trying to keep the bowls of his anger locked away. He was trying but she was pissing him off with all these fucking questions "No! I wanna know what's going on Larry! As your friend-" Before he knew it he snapped "yeah as my friend, as my friend I advise you to leave. You be filled in later but right now I no have the energy nor the patience" she glared at him slightly pushing him causing him to tuck his tongue into his cheek

She was on thin ice

"What the fuck is happening tonight" she growled standing her ground, she'd been apart of their friend group since grade school as well and she couldn't fathom the reason as to why he was keeping secrets from her. "That's none of your business, just get your shit and leave" She stomped her feet like a toddler who just got told "No" Larry lost his remaining patience with her. "If you wake him up I swear to god...." he growled gently grabbing her arm and dragging her towards the door "No! I'm not a stranger on the street, I'm your friend Larry!" He sighed pinching the bridge of his nose asking god "why me" at this moment

"L-Larry...?" Gabrielle's screaming of protests were cut off by Lau's soft voice. "I gonna kill you Gabby..." he whispered darkly into her ear. "I will tell you later" he swung open the door and pushed her out slamming it behind him. He stood on the porch watching her climb into her car mouthing to her "later" while making sure she left alright, once she was gone he came back in shutting the door looking as if nothing happened. "Hi belle, you sleep oki?" Larry's dark expression was now gone, a smile replacing his scowl. A loving expression creeping onto his face as Lau came into his line of view, A beautiful lion mane on top of his head. He rubbed his right eye sleepily slowly walking over to Larry's outstretched arms earning him a soft kiss to the lips.

"Why was Gabby here, is she oki?" Lau softly asked nuzzling his face into Larry's chest, voice laced with concern. "She oki bebè just needed to discuss some business" Larry's deep octave present again as he whispered into Lau's ear. Lau picked up on his love's dark tone, a shiver running down his back. Was he in The Devil's presence right now? Tugging on Larry's tattooed arm he spoke with a stern tone "bedroom". Not giving Larry a chance to answer he turned around walking off knowing Larry would follow. Once they reached the bedroom he spun on his heels folding his arms, his hair spinning with him distracting Larry for a second enamored by his beauty. "Why. Was. She. Here? No lie to me"

It's not the same, ivory's illegal
Don't you remember?

Not being to lie to Lau he nodded sighing a bit "she wanted for know what's going on tonight... I can no tell her. I no want her involved in this, you or her.. you too important to me and I no have you hurt because of me. God bebè I probably have a target on my head and I know they use you to get to me and I no let that happen so please... I will talk to her but I no want you two involved oki?" Lau nodded understanding where his brother was coming from and he now understood why Gabby was so upset, she'd understand after Larry spoke with her. "I understand" Larry looked as if a weight had been lifted from his shoulders, his brown orbs glowing. "Promets-moi" (promise me) Lau nodded placing a kiss to Larry's lips proudly "Je le promets" (I promise).

We both know that deep down
The feeling still deep down is good

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Lau sighed softly sitting behind his mahogany wood desk, the crushed velvet carpet shifting when he moved his feet. Exhausted was an understatement this case was draining him but this is what he wanted to do, what he worked so hard for. He leaned back in his chair, the leather caressing his skin trapped within the sleeves of his blazer. He tried to focus on the task at hand but the thought of Larry was disrupting his thought process. Those beautiful moans ringing in his ears like a symphony, he wanted to hear them while Larry was awake. He'd address this with him later for now he wanted to look over this files one last time before going home. He had a therapy session later on in the afternoon and he wanted to be well rested for that. After glancing over the files one last time he packed up leaving his office waving goodbye to his secretary making his way to the parking lot. Once inside his car safely he backed out and left driving home.

Larry sat in the living room waiting for Lau to arrive home, he'd been on his mind all morning and he could feel exhaustion that wasn't his own.

Damn twin connection

He loved it and hated it at the same time before he had the chance to dive deeper into that the door swung open revealing a tired looking Lau. Smiling sympathetically he rose to his feet making his way over taking his briefcase giving him a soft kiss "welcome home bebè". Lau smiled at this returning the kiss letting Larry take his briefcase "thank you baby, I so tired" Larry kissed his head nodding as he listened. "I know Belle, we go upstairs and lay down oki?" Lau nodded following Larry up the stairs changing his clothes once they were in the bedroom climbing into bed beside Larry. He held Lau in his arms humming as they both drifted off.

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Larry was the first to wake up after they'd went upstairs to take a nap, Lau had an appointment at three and it was only one thirty so they had a little time to shower and eat etc. Moving slowly so he wouldn't wake up the other, he climbed out of bed making his way downstairs to make them food. Washing his hands and grabbing the ingredients he needed, he decided on grilled marinated chicken with a side of fruit salad. Getting in the right headspace he washed the chicken thighs deveining them sitting them to the side while he washed the fruit. Once everything was washed he started on the marinade for the chicken seasoning the thighs setting it in the refrigerator for a few while he worked on the fruit salad. After cutting up the fruit he washed the cutting board along with any other dishes placing the fruit in a bowl mixing it up, once completed he took out the chicken placing them in an oiled and buttered pan.

By this time Lau had woke up as well deciding he'd get in the shower, once finished he picked out his Afro and got dressed. He moisturized his skin and hair winking at himself in the mirror before exiting making his way down the stairs. Turning the corner he smiled to himself seeing his love plating food for them, he loved watching Larry in the kitchen

He looked so sexy when he was focused

Coming up behind him Lau wrapped his arms around Larry's waist pecking the back of his neck, "hi baby". He chewed on his lip as Larry turned around smiling at him "hi bebè, lunch is ready" Lau nodded with a wide smile pecking Larry's lips "thank you baby, smells good". Larry kissed him back his smile never fading, "welcome, go sit. I bring the food out" Lau nodded giving Larry's waist a soft squeeze "oki". After sharing one last kiss Lau left the kitchen to go sit in the dining room Larry joining soon afterwards. Once they finished Larry got ready while Lau cleaned up since he was ready, once ready they got into the car driving towards Melody's office

Here goes nothing

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"Hello Laurent, how are you feeling today?" Melody smiled at Lau watching him sit down with a soft smile. He smiled at her sighing softly "I doing good, I have so much to tell you Mel" she smiled at her new nickname nodding her head softly "I'm all ears" he proceeded to tell her about the fight him and Larry had causing her to grow concerned a bit but she held off noticing how much brighter he smiled and how happier he seemed. "Mid argument we confessed to each other, w-we together now... I know what you said about healing a-and I want for heal with him. Mel he make me so happy, make me feel so safe.. he everything Jaden wasn't" Melody smiled happy that he was experiencing happiness once again. "I'm so happy for you Laurent and I hope he continues to treat you well. Speaking of Jaden.. would you like to discuss him now?"

The room fell silent and the air shifted, it's like that moment when you know you said something you shouldn't have. He cleared his throat but nodded a bit, if he was going to heal he had to talk about him. That heaviness in his chest returned and he felt like he was suffocating, picking up on this Melody immediately called Larry into the room who rushed over to Lau's side. Lau took Larry's hand squeezing it before speaking "he belittled me... made me feel stupid, worthless, ugly. He beat me everyday for little things, if his dinner no done he hit me, if the house no clean he hit me, if I look too happy he hit me. I-If I talk to or about Larry h-he hit me... he no make love to me in a year, he told me I was disgusting a-and undesirable and I believe him.." Lau was now crying while Larry held him, Melody offering him tissues while listening intently. "Laurent, you are neither of those things and I know you've asked yourself why a million times. When it comes to abuse sometimes there is no reason and you've done nothing wrong, they're just looking for a reason. What Jaden was going through was not your fault and it was not your burden to bare. In a relationship you are equal, there's communication no matter what and every argument can be solved and worked out if you're willing to fight for it. You are not ugly, you are not incompetent, you are not useless and you are more than your abuse." Melody reached out taking Lau's hands in her own looking into his eyes. "As for intimacy that is something you and Larry need to discuss but please do not rush yourself if you are not ready"

Larry held Lau through the entire session making it his mission to make Lau feel loved, desired and beautiful. When Lau was ready they'd make love and he'd make it the best experience Lau has ever had.

He was sure of that, he'd make it happen

Lyrics used for this chapter are from: Ivy by Frank Ocean and Pink + White by Frank Ocean