I hate it when people pretend to care.

You see it all the time, famous people who claim that they love all their fans, and that they truly care.

They don't care about you. They don't know you. They probably don't know your name, wouldn't recognize you on the street. They don't really want to be your friend. They lie to you, because they want you to love them. Sometimes when a persons lies and says they care, you start to care about them, too--because you didn't realize they were lying.

It's not just celebrities who do it. All sorts of people do it.

Sometimes, I'll do it. I'll tell my followers that I'm their friend.

I'm not your friend. You don't know me, I don't know you. I don't even know most of my "friends" here, and they sure don't know.

In a way, I care. I don't want to see anyone hurting. And I love everyone, because I love humans--it's something I live by...to love everyone.

But just because I love you like everyone else, doesn't make you special to me. I know that's awful to say, but it's true.

I'm not going to lie to you and tell you I like you--just so you'll like me.

The problem with that is, if I tell you that you're all beautiful and lovely people and that you're all my family and friends: you'll believe it. You'll come to me, and you'll act as if we're good friends.

Is that bad?

Only because most of the time, you won't bother trying to get to know me. Because what I've displayed on a screen, you think that you know me. You think you've read my soul, and that you know my secret and inner thoughts. But you don't. You know the ones that most people physically with me don't know--but you don't know me. Don't ever assume that you know me.

Besides, if I tell a mass of people a secret, then it isn't really a secret anymore?

So I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that we're all one big family. I'm not going to lie and say I care, because even though it is sad to see you hurting and I wish you were happy--I won't lose sleep over that. Yes, I sound like a jerk. But at least I'm honest with you.

But just because we're not friends now doesn't mean we can't be later. I don't mind strangers coming up and talking to me. I don't mind giving advice. I AM here for you, if you need me. And I do love you and wish you happiness.

I'm also bothered that some "friends" are upset because I play favorites. Yes, I do play favorites. Is that bad? No. You're my friends, not my children. Yes, I love you all EQUALLY. But I don't like you all equally. Sometimes I don't like you at all, sometimes I like you more than anyone.

Maybe I'm the only person who thinks this way, or maybe I'm just the only one being honest.

People have things that they lie about. Everyone lies. That doesn't mean everyone is a liar, of course, but everyone lies. You're lying if you say you never lie.

But I'm not going to lie about how I feel about any of you. I won't do that.

I might lie about how I'm feeling about myself, but I won't tell you that I like you if I don't like you. I won't tell you that I care if I feel nothing for you.

In the past, I've lied to people about how I felt. I told them I loved them when I didn't. I strung people along and manipulated them. I played with people's feelings.

I don't do that anymore.

My feelings for you, will never again be a lie.