I wish I died when I had cancer...

But I didn't.......

Because I stayed strong for my sister Hope...and for two other love ones..

well one I thought who loved me...

I couldn't leave my son Joshua....

And most importantly....

I couldn't leave my fiancée who I love so much...Cameron....

I thought..she loved me....

I just found out that she has someone else in her life now...

Cameron..if you're reading this..

Thank you...

For all the happiness you brought into my life...

For all the smiles and laughs....

I promised you..

I would never leave you or our son..

I promised you..

That even if we are fighting over dumb or serious problems, I will always be there for you...

Even if we're fighting..you call me once and I'll be there in a second.

But..I didn't know that you would leave me just like that without knowing....

I understand why you did that..

I just...now..I don't know if I believe that you loved me....

Just know that...

Whoever you're with, I hope you are very happy. I hope he or she makes you really happy...

I support you...

I love you...

Maybe this is a goodbye letter...

Idk yet...I'm deciding if I should or not...

Cammy bear...

I love you okay?❤️

Even if I'm gone...I would watch over you..I would always love you..I would protect you from everything that comes your way.

I want all this pain to go away...

I know..maybe there were times that my words hurt you..

And I'm sorry.

And I'm sorry I'm doing this...

I hope you understand my decisions...

Plz take care of Joshua....❤️😔

Cammy bear....

Keep the ring somewhere okay...?

Or if you want throw it away....

Do whatever you want..

I just hope you keep one memory of us both...

*tries to smile*

Again I'm really sorry...

So long......❤️😔

I'm sorry I'm breaking my promises.....

Maybe....we'll see each other again....😔😔

-Jonathan.

Daddy!!! No!!! Don't weave me!!!
*cries hard and runs to mommy*
-Joshua