I can't stop thinking about you.

In physics class when I'm bored beyond measure and during sleepless nights filled with 2 AM thoughts, you're all that runs through my head. The sparkle in your eyes when you talk about something you love, the slight freckles spattered across your cheeks due to staying under the sun all day, and how your hair keeps escaping the bandanna holding your waves back. But most of all, I think of an alternate universe where we could have been together.

I'm not deluded enough to believe that it would actually happen.

When I was young, I would watch classic Disney movies wearing a princess outfit and a tiara, wondering when I would meet my very own prince. I'd always been biased towards Aladdin, mostly because he was Asian like me, and also because I loved his inky black hair. No wonder I've fallen for you; you look so much like him. But I wasn't your Jasmine. I was merely a thread in your magic carpet.

I am never going to tell you how I feel because I know you don't like me as anything more than a friend. I'm pretty sure you know how much I love cliches. I'm a sucker for happily-ever-afters and candlelight dinners under the night sky. So, it would be very understandable as to why I'm not going to tell you. One, I don't want to ruin our friendship. I'd do anything to be near you, even if it means that I have to watch you talk about girls you like, or even if I'm friend-zoned (which I most definitely am). Why sever my only connection to you with something as petty as my feelings?

Second, I do not want you to see the look on my face when you inevitably reject me. I know I'm a horrific coward, but that's just who I am. So I'm going to pull the most cliched card from the book, and write letters to you. Letters that contain my deepest, darkest,happiest thoughts and ramblings. Letters that will never, ever reach you.

You're like the stars, Ashton. Too high up in the sky for me to reach you.

• Author's Note •

hello everybody, i really hope you enjoyed chapter 1 :) i wanted to start the story on a light note, and i hope the writing is not too bad 😹
if you liked it, please let me know by commenting and voting! chapter 2 will be out next week!