Why is it when I'm already sad my Youtube starts to play sad songs? I mean... before ever getting sad, all the songs are funky and creepy and soothing but then... BANG!

I'm seriously thinking of making a book with the incarnations of the universe and despair getting shipped with me so it's MALE! UNIVERSE x AUTHOR x MALE! DESPAIR.

I have this love-hate relationship with the universe. I love it sometimes because what I want to happen, happens. I said that before in a chapter about my so-called ability. I hate it because what I don't want to happen, also happens... xD

I think I also have this love-hate relationship with Despair but I think the LOVE is more dominant. I mean... if you were one of the people who read my angst stories... did you know I have screenshots of your comments so every time I found myself doing nothing, I would just read your reactions and laugh at your despair? Sorry (I'm not sorry =3=)

But there are some times I don't like despair. There are specific despairs I like and some that I don't.

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I am freaking out now because of the training for the Regionals. Every once in a while, I end up saying to myself that I shouldn't have joined the Feature Writing Contest because my grades are gravely affected. Problem is... the school competition (the one that determines the contestants) was mandated so I had no other choice but to join.

The pressure is eating me o_____o

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Watch what played while I'm typing this...

https://youtu.be/hSuYaurncJ8

Do you get me now? xD I already shuffled my playlist and yet this song played ;-;

In short I'm sort of emphasizing my love-hate relationship with the universe and despair xD

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Wattpad is my favorite place in the world. Somehow the online world isn't as lonely as the offline one. Well even if there's nobody to chat, there's always the editing, the writing, the anime, and... the DESPAIR +u+

If you guys ever need help or think someone needs my help, tell me about it. The first time I was in Wattpad I had nobody to ask for help and such. .-.

Since that seems like an awful experience and everything I would like to not have people go through that. 

I mean.. do you have any idea I was thinking about deleting my Wattpad before during the first few weeks I joined? I think I didn't open my Wattpad for a month because I had no idea how to delete it (See what I mean about not knowing what to do with Wattpad? xD)

Ally-chin [lol Murasakibara is possessing me right now, maybe I should be eating potato chips] loves you guys a lot through hope and despair. *coughs intensely because of mentioning the 'h' word* 

Fine you can address me as -san or -senpai (even though I swear that the -senpai honorific brings chills to me because I end up thinking you're a Yandere .-., a Yandere for me, I must stop imagining these things ;-;). Just remember that you can talk to me if you need help [Just not math please, I'm struggling with math already xD]

~With lots of love from Junko~

-25th day of October 2016 ; 11:37 PM