Wow, I can't believe so many things can change in a little second. Many people didn't know this because it is personal and like I said, I have trust Issues.

But I was pregnant, I found out on the I think 20th of March, and My little Angel was very wanted on my part. It's sad to think that people whom are supposed to be close to you are the ones that hurt you the most. I actually had a miscarriage like about a week and a half ago.

I cried soo sooo much because I really loved my little baby, and I've allways wanted to be a mother. As many people Know, I am Christian, but when these things happened, I just started questioning, Why me? why my baby?

I'm doing better now, and I accept the fact that I have a little Angel In Heaven. Thing is, I won't stop loving God no matter, because I know there is a purpose for everything in life, everything always turns out for the best. Also, I am grateful because even though it was for a short time, I was able to be pregnant and have a blessing in my life.

I won't lie, its still hard and If I think about it for too long I would probably burst out crying. But at the end of the day, it is what it is. And someday I will understand the perfect purpose for why my little Angel, my first baby, had to go so quickly.

Anyways, life itself has not been getting any easier, its true what people say, when you reach your 20's life is like a maze, Its like, you don't know where to go, or what to do.

Well I'm gonna stop now lol, Like I said, This is my sort of diary where I will write my feelings and stuff. ;)