oct. 3rd, 2021

grief is usually reserved for when other people die. it's rarely used for yourself, especially if you still qualify as alive.

but in many ways, i am grieving.

i am grieving all the people i used to be, all the people that i could have been.

i am grieving the death of all the possibilities, of being infinite.

when you're young, it feels like you could become anything that you dream of.

now that i've grown up, i realize the truth.

my dreams are all dead and so am i.