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I am scared of getting attached to people.

I am scared of disliking people too.

I think I am a bearer of bad news. I think God hates me. He took my mom away, my dad away, my little brother away, but didn't take me.

He hates me. He thinks I would be a nuisance in his little kingdom.

He has left me here to suffer for all my bad deeds.

For hurting my family, over and over.

For never telling them how much they meant to me.

If living an ignorant life was a crime, I am a criminal.

Why isn't anyone arresting me?