Yeah... I tried to go to bed after that last chapter... but I said na fam... so here's another chapter for tonight! Not as long though! Although if you enjoyed it I'll do more. The song is Dynasty by MIIA

(Hopes POV)

     The guys wouldn't even talk to me, let alone look at me. They acted like I was a bomb and if they looked at me they would die. Did I really react that badly to it? At least I'm not paralyzed, maybe it's because I had one dosage instead of several. Del, Brian, Moo, and Basically silently played pool while Evan was in his office. Craig, Nogla, Lui, and Wildcat sat on the couch across from me, except Craig who was sitting on the other end of mine. 

     I was laying down, funny enough exhausted from sleeping, although I don't know what I went counts as sleeping. Wildcat glanced over at me, rolled his eyes, and looked back at the game going on.

     "What's your deal with me? Honestly, what did I ever do to you for you to hate me so much?" I sat up but my muscles screamed at me not to. It felt like I worked out every part of my body for hours.

     "Because ever since little miss perfect showed up our fearless gang is toppling over itself because some dudes want to get in her pants. We should've just left you with Wolf Syndicate, I for one wouldn't have cared if you died or not from them." He says. 

    Brian moves the pool stick so it's behind Wildcat and yanks it back as hard as he can, hitting him in the chest. I throw my hands over my mouth to prevent myself from laughing. Wildcat grabs the pool stick from Brian and breaks it over his knee, tossing the two pieces to Brian. A couple of the guys start to laugh as Wildcat gets up and is ready to fight. Brian throws his hands up in defense but still has a smirk on his face.

    "Are you really going to fucking fight me over that. I think it's time to get the old anger issues checked out buddy." Brian says, still smirking. I start to laugh moving my hand from my mouth.

     "You know what, tell Evan I went home and to text me if he needs me." He walked down the stairs and a few moments later the clubhouse door open and closed. 

     I look over at Evan's office, the blinds are closed shut and his door probably locked. He's been in there for over an hour now. I get up from my spot and walk towards the door.

     "He won't talk to you, not after what we all experienced," Delirious said behind me.

     I go up to the door and surprisingly it's not locked. I look back at the group of guys as they continue on with their game. I open up the door and quietly slip in, making sure to close it behind me. I look at Evan and see him staring ahead, completely spaced out, looking almost dead inside.

     "Evan, are you okay?" I ask him sitting down in the chair in front of the desk. He knew I was there because he shook his head no. He blinks and looks over at me, his eyes red like he's been crying.

     "How... did you make it look so easy?" He asks me. I look down at his desk and see a single small syringe. The rest on the floor crushed, the liquid seeping through the carpet.

     "Evan why did you-" He mindlessly hands me a notepad, covered in his handwriting.

     "I had to go through what you went through. I couldn't let you go through THAT alone. I tested it out myself because I know I'm not scared of anything, but I guess I have one fear." He wipes at his eyes although no tears are falling down. "Read it, it's the one dream that I had." He sits back in his chair and crosses his arms, going back to staring into space. I look down at his scribbles and read.

     I was back at Wolf's home base. I knew something was wrong because none of the guys were with me. I was going in on a mission that I didn't even know exactly. I walked in, gun in hand, and just saw all the bodies of the Wolf's stacked up like a pyramid. I walked away from them, this wasn't what I was looking for. I went into a room and just felt guilt all over me. All of my friends, all of the guys, my gang all scattered around the room lifeless, blood still pouring out of them. I looked up and there she was, at the brink of death looking at the lifeless bodies with me. I ran over to her and held her in my lap. In my mind, I completed my mission, but this... didn't feel like a mission. This felt like some freak was having fun in my mind while I watched everyone I loved as a family die. Except I didn't watch anyone die, but her.

     "You can let go of me Evan, I'm going to be gone like the rest of  them here soon." She said. She coughed and blood sprayed over her and my arm. I just held her tighter, not wanting to let her go.

     "I love you too much to let you go, please just let me hold you." I was crying at this point. Even in my worst nightmare, she's still her beautiful stubborn self.

     There in my arms, I felt her heartbeat become slower and slower till it was no more. That was it, I hardly cry in real life, let alone my dreams, and I sat there, rocking her back and forth crying like a baby. Everyone, everyone that I had grown with; Delirious, Terroriser, Mini, Moo, Nogla, Wildcat, Lui, Basically, and Hope, were gone. The friends I grew up with and considered my own brothers, and the girl I'm growing to love every single day were gone.

     Biggest fear: losing everyone

     Time asleep: 35 minutes and 30 seconds.

     Reacted/Got up and moved: no     how??? Phone recorded me just sleeping in my chair.

     I bit my lip, as I read it a second time. I felt the lump forming in my throat, I felt my eyes get very heavy as my tears stayed there, not wanting to fall. I put the notebook back on his desk as he continued to stare off into space. I wiped at my eyes and sighed. The toughest man that this city fears, was scared of losing it all, his gang and me.

     "I'll take you back to your house now. You're actual house." He says as he gets up from the chair, grabbing his red jacket and putting it on. I put my hoodie back on as soon as I woke up.

     He puts the yellow notepad in his desk and wipes at his eyes one more time as he goes for the door. I grab onto his arm and stop him as I go into his chest and wrap my arms around him, just like in my dream. He wraps his arms around my back and pulls me closer to him, hugging me back.

     "I guess we all need a hug sometimes," I say in his chest, he chuckles for a second as he gives me a squeeze, before letting go of me.

     "You don't have to take me back to my place... your place is just as good," I say giving him a smile. He returns it back to me as he opens the door and walks out of the office. I follow behind him.

     "Hope went to check on me and asked if she can part of the heist finale, I decided if she can deal with what she went through, she can deal with the heist finale," Evan says to the guys. Brian starts to chuckle and raises a bottle of Pisswasser to me, as does Craig.

     "Look at that, a little intimidation and you got a spot in the heist. I'm proud of you." He chuckles as he takes a drink. I start to laugh and nod my head.

     "You guys underestimate me and see what happens when you do?" I say as I smile.

     Evan drove back to his place, neither one of us saying anything. I took a deep breath, knowing what I was about to do.

     "If you remember my reactions and what I said... I'll tell you what they were about. You let me read yours and it's only fair I tell you mine." I felt my heart speed up, unsure of how he'll react.

     "The first one, the only good one, was us... the marriage one... we were in a nice house, I can only assume was ours, and you wanted to take a picture with me. That was really it." From the corner of my eye, I saw as he turned away from me for a second before going to looking back out the windshield to drive. 

    "The second one was with Craig... we were at the Vinewood sign you know happy one second, and the next it was a switch flipped and he pushed me off of the sign. I really don't like falling from big heights." I bring my knees up to my chest and hug them. I guess I'll have to be prepared to be thrown out of the car.

     "The third one... was the one where I thought I woke up. You and the guys were still there, but once I looked behind you, they were gone. It was just you and I... Evan I can't control my fears and you know that. I don't know if it's with you or just with anyone because the second time that I went through the episode, it was Craig instead." I say, already becoming defensive. He stops the car at a stop sign and turns to look at me.

     "I would hurt myself first before ever hurting you, do you understand me Hope?" He says, his tone becoming serious. I nod my head as he turns away and goes in the direction that we need to.

     "The last one, I was in some kind of tank filled with water and I just watch Brian.. well cheat in front of me. That's when I woke up." I look out my window now, watching Sandy Shores go behind us as we get closer to the city. Evan reached over to me and held my hand, I didn't let go of it till we got to his apartment.

     That night, Evan and I slept with each other, promising the other if we had our nightmares again that we would hold the other. We held each other anyway, not letting go once throughout the night.