I think you all... deserve to wait and see how I envision Evan because I'm evil like that. Instead here is how I picture Brian! Honestly, I felt like I went into shock when I created him because, well... just look! The song is Paparazzi slowed + reverbed by Lady Gaga!

(Hopes POV)

I slowly open my eyes and see that I was on my side, looking over at Evan. He was looking up at the T.V, watching the news by the sound of it. He glances over in my direction and sees that I'm awake. He leans in and brushes the hair out of my face and behind my ear, giving me a small smile.

"You've only been out for two hours, so don't worry about missing a few days." He says softly. I nod my head and glance around the room, both Craig and Brian nowhere to be found.

"Why aren't you like... yelling at me, or going off, why aren't you mad?" I ask Evan. So much for the silent treatment that he needs. He sighs and looks down at the ground.

"Because I deserve more than what you said to me, I'm honestly expecting you to break up with me here in a minute. Or to start hitting me as hard as you can. I deserve it Hope, I put you in here, I haven't seen you as much as Brian and Craig has while you've been in here. For fuck sakes, I didn't even go and find you and Brock while you were taken and tied up. How can you even look or talk to me, let alone be with me?" He looks up at me, he looks like he's about to cry again but he isn't. I look at him, trying to think of what to say.

"Back when I first got out of here and Brain took me back to the warehouse, I told the guys I was becoming scared of you. I didn't know what you were going to do now that Sydnee was back in your life. I didn't know if you were going to break up with me and go back to her. I didn't know if you still had feelings for her. I didn't know if she was going to attack me and you be fine with it or what! But since a couple days ago or whenever I was brought in here, I think I know that you at least still have some feelings left for her." I watch as he bites his lip and takes a deep breath.

"I love you, Hope. You are the only girl I will love all the way till I die, do you understand that? Do you want to know what was going through my head these past few days? Protect Hope at all cost, I went to look for Sydnee first so she wasn't hurting you or Brock. I chased after her because I didn't want her to run away and have us not know where she was and you end up in here again or worse. I haven't visited you as much because I just have this fear she's going to escape and come get you. That's what's been going through my head, that's why I've done what I did, to make sure you're safe." He scoots his chair closer to me. I feel my eyes start to water up, no, enough with the tears, I'm tougher than this.

"Do you still have feelings for her though?" I ask. He sits up in his chair and gives me a straight face before nodding his head yes.

"It's not like before, I don't love her like I love you. I don't even love her, it's just... this feeling you have with your first love. You don't love or like them anymore, you just sort of miss them without missing them if that makes any sense? Don't you still have some sort of feeling for Brian like he does for you?" He asks. I look down at the white-tiled hospital floor.

He's right... sometimes I think what if Brian never cheated... will we still be together, will I even know who Evan or anyone else is? Brian never lost his feelings for me, and now that I have the time to actually think about it, I miss being with Brian. I miss what we were, all the fun and crazy shit that we've done together. Am I making a mistake with being with Evan and not with Brian? No, I love Evan. I love Evan. I miss Brian. The door opens and a chuckling Brian comes in. I look over at him as he holds up a bag of Up-and-Atom.

"Figured you were awake. Brought back your favorite so you don't have to eat this horrible hospital food." Brian says still chuckling. I brought my hands to my face and started to cry, unable to stop. Yes Evan, I still have feelings for Brian.

"What the hell did you do to her this time?" Brian asks angrily.

"He did nothing Bri (Pronounce it like how you would say Brian just without the 'an'!), I'm on my period I'm just a mess right now, sorry," I said through my tears and hands. Fear and realization hit me like a truck, I haven't used that nickname for him since, we first started dating. I bring my hands away from my face and see Brian raise an eyebrow as he gave me a confused look.

"You feeling alright over there? First off, since when did you start calling me Bri again? Secondly, last time that I recall Hope, you're on birth control and told me you don't get your periods anymore?" He asks confused. He sets the paper bag down on the table next to him as he goes through it. I don't think I can get out of this one. Evan gets out of his seat, looking down at his phone.

"I'll be right back. Delirious is texting me about what's happening back at the warehouse. I might have to go back there." Evan says sighing.

He doesn't even give me a glance as he gets up and brushes past Brian and goes out the door, closing it behind him. Brian pulls out a thing of fries and a wrapped up burger and sits on the opposite side from where Evan was sitting. He hands me the burger and sits back in his chair, crossing one leg on top of the other. I wipe at my eyes and sigh.

"Will you tell me what happened? Because I know he sure as hell won't." He says nodding his head toward the door, referring to Evan. I sit up in the hospital bed and unwrap the plain double cheeseburger.

"We were discussing about Sydnee... why he did all the stuff that he did. I said 'do you still have feelings for her.' he said how he doesn't love her, but it's some sort of feeling after your first love. He then was like 'do you still have some sort of feeling for Brian.' and it dawned on me, I never knew and still don't know what the feeling I have with you is. That's when you came in, and I guess that feeling I've been trying to hide and forget about, came out when I saw you." I stare blankly ahead of me as I still try to come up with a word to describe what I'm feeling.

"So... we both still have something for each other, don't we?" Brian asks. I look over at him and slowly nod my head.

"I miss us Brian, I miss the relationship like hell. I... I don't know if I moved on or what, but I... the best way I can describe it is I want to be with you again but not without leaving Evan. I don't know... I miss your stupid laugh and your stupid jokes and your stupid smile, but I'm so happy with Evan. I don't know what to do Brian..." I felt the tears fall down again as he just stares at me.

Once again I wipe at my eyes. He sighs as he sets the fries down on the nightstand next to him and stands up, is he leaving me as well? He brings a hand to his hair and runs his fingers through his hair as he starts to pace back and forth. I think I should just give everyone the silent treatment from here on out so I don't come out and say the stupid things that I say. Brian stops and turns to me. His hand in his hair moves to the back of his neck.

"I still love you Hope, whether you love me as much, just as much, or not as much as Evan, I'm still going to love you much more than he does, okay? I already told and promised myself that I won't get another girlfriend unless you come back to me. You are the one for me, Hope. But... it's your choice Hope. Whatever you choose that will make you happy will make me happy. That's all that I want you to be in life, is happy. Whether it's with me or with Evan or hell even Craig, as long as your happy and smiling, I'll be happy and smiling. I'm just..." he starts to smile, even beginning to chuckle, "I'm just happy that you haven't lost everything in me you know? It gives me, well it gives me hope." He says, chuckling again at the pun toward my name. I start to smile at him.

"Maybe I don't miss your stupid jokes as much as I thought I did," I say, causing both of us to laugh.

Brian and I got back to eating and about 5 minutes later Evan came back in the room, a smile on his face. Hopefully he didn't hear what Brian and I said to each other, but the smile on his face says otherwise. He sits back down in his seats and grabs my half-eaten burger. I giggle as I try to snatch it back, he holds it away from him so I'm not able to grab it.

"Thank you, for this burger, was feeling hungry. Anyways while I was out there texting Del, the doctor came around and told me that you will be out here in a day and a half. They just have to finish up a few more tests and X-rays on you. Won't be long now. Not to mention the thing back at the warehouse is finally figured out." He takes a huge bite of my burger and hands it back to me. I glare at him as I yank it away from him.

"What exactly happened? Sydnee didn't try and attack anyone... did she?" Brian asks with food in his mouth. Evan holds his breath and nods his head.

"She went after Craig actually. He went to check on her because he thought she was supposedly dead or not breathing or something and she attacked him. Other than a few scratches on his face and arms he's fine. I told Del to give her a little something until I get back." Evan says looks up at the T.V again.

     At least now I know where Craig is at. The news talks about the "gang attack" at the beach the other day. Sydnee deserves to be tortured by Delirious like she's tortured everyone else. I just hope I'm the one who gets to kill her when the time comes, which is hopefully soon.