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After reaching home, I did some yoga to ease my mind and flipped through the album to watch my then happy family. Now, it was too depressing and alone. I got a huge craving for chocolate or something sugary just as I felt tears prick my eyes. Urgh, this is all so boring. I wish something new and interesting take place in my life for once; at least once to make me feel alive.

Changing to some slacks and button down red floral dress, I walked out to go for an ice cream in the park. It means big eyes piercing holes on me, but, I didn't care. My features as most of the good minded people told me were killer. Yes, they thought I could walk down as a supermodel if I wasn't fat. Of course, the fat issue is there, and I thought, 'why I can't be now?' for that people would say, nobody likes fat girls. 'Whatever.'

Getting myself a large chocolate and vanilla twist with chocolate syrup and sprinkles, I went to a corner and sat there to eat my snack peacefully. Well, when the world is spinning, there isn't any sympathy or leaving.people.to.their.own.business.

A small child of probably four or five came running to me and stared at my ice cream. I smiled at her, but she kept glaring at me. I did start to lose my patience but I asked her politely what? And do you know what she said? "You shouldn't be eating that. You are big, so big and sugar could make you even bigger."

Beautiful girls with foul mouth, Urgh; I could feel tears pricking my eyes but I inhaled deeply and asked her to go to her mommy. I watched where she was heading and I saw it making once again stab my heart. A lean beautiful woman sat on one of the benches eating an ice cream just like me. But she was lean, beautiful and fashionably dressed. I turned my head to the opposite side and tried hard not to cry.

"Don't you think you will spiral out like that cone in your hand if you keep eating this kind of food?"

"Aaaah, will everyone leave me alone..."

"Oh, I am sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I am Jack, from the slim fit fitness center."

"Oh, now that you are here to preach me about diet and losing weight. Whatever it maybe, I have tried and it doesn't work and I don't want to hear it."

"Hmm, the usual rant of any fat people I have met in my life. No, before we talk, I will get myself my favorite and I will come down to talk with you. You seem like the forlorn shade of people who finds it difficult to speak with others." Saying that he ran out to get himself an ice cream; Meanwhile, I tried to study him and liked his fashion choice. The way his toned muscles protrude would make any other girl drool over him, but to me...he is just like any other man.

"Oh, my...yours look, killer, what is that?"

"It's called death chocolate."

"What?"

"Yes, it's chocolate cake with chocolate icing, chocolate ganache, chocolate ice cream and chocolate shavings with Chocó drop and oh, with vanilla cream and white chocolate"

"Chocolate these that, oh my, and how do you stay this fit plus won't you get stomach cramps?"

"That my girl is the secret I want to tell you. I will make you understand if you will come with me to gym every day. I will get you fit in a matter of days."

"I don't know."

"Come on, you could at least try and with your looks and that luscious strawberry blond hair, you would look killer than my girlfriend. Besides, look at my meal here, it's so many calories and doesn't you wonder why I am all muscles?"

"You have a girlfriend?"

"Yes, her name is Jasmine and she was about your size. Don't laugh and don't think I am picking on you. I am going to propose her this January."

"Congrats... tell me, why are you being so cool to me?"

"Because I know exactly how it is to be fat and mad, that's why."

"You were fat?"

"Of course, about the size of you and above, I tried hard to get into this abs here. Nothing is impossible and I am the living proof that you can reduce your weight with the correct proportion of food and exercise. If jasmine is now a model, why can't you?"

His grin and my wide smile were enough to shame away from the sun that afternoon and I was building a new hope, something might happen with his help. Something might happen. And I can be what I dreamed of being.

I was so happy in my heart after the chat with my new male friend. His words were so encouraging, it made me smile like an idiot and my smile didn't falter. Not even when the mother of the child came and said on her behalf but the spoilt like Angel brat didn't budge from her opinion. I ruffled her hair and stood up. Retired for the night and slept peacefully.

When I got up the next morning, the atmosphere seems to shine gloriously and I had a hard time to quit smiling. Yesterday, before meeting Jack, I never had any hope, but, today I have this urge to do something.

It is not easy for me to quit eating, but nobody knows that I can do whatever I want to. People pick on me and serve me lots of ugly comments and jokes and say I am quite a machine to gorge on all food and hence all the fat, but the truth they don't know is, I am different and I am not a big eater myself. Thanks to depression and mood swings which help me attract to chocolates and cheese and that is the only time when I shall eat beyond my limits. Otherwise I have a strict pattern and I stick to my diet. Yet, I am all fat.

I am different; I smile on that realization and feel so great. Hugging myself and dressing up, I looked at the clock and saw five thirty blaring at me. Jack asked me to be there at six thirty and I have plenty of time to warm up and go to the gym.

Thus I set out to jog in the early morning loving the atmosphere very much. I breathed in the wet air and smiled at the birds and flowers and the sweet rays of golden light crawling from its bed. I jogged deep into the park along with the river bed. Entrancing, that was the only description right now in my mind for nature. I closed my eyes and slowly jogged with a smile. Despite my weight, which was 270 lbs, I never had difficulty with them. At first when I started to job, I breathed hard like the air was choking me. Gradually I allowed my body to get comfortable with this and then, after a few days, I was able to jog smoothly. Smiling brightly and closing my eyes, I jogged releasing all the tension, enjoying the fresh rays of beautiful sun kissing me on my face.

At first I didn't know what happened, but then I though the sun has crashed down on me and I looked up at the sky frightened, but the rays were intact and coming from the sky slowly slithering through the leaves. Wondering what happened, I sat up to feel laughter coming from different directions. Oh, the sun was not the culprit; I didn't even want to this far away from my street. Now, I was on the street I despised, I jogged to Den's area...again. I should have kept track of my place, now I got myself into trouble. Getting up, I brushed myself and started to walk in the opposite directions when I felt the jolt of pain on my shoulder as he tried to turn me around.

"You walking away without even saying sorry, fat bee?" he was amused with what he did and what he saw, a frightened and near to tears Angela. 'No, I won't cry.' It was my fault that I closed my eyes and jogged towards him and fell to my knees. With his dirty blond hair and sculptured face, he looked handsome and not to mention his clear blue eyes. I almost melted to his stare.

"Please, Den, I am not in my good humor and that hurts, your hand is hurting me."

"Oh really?" and he tightened his grips. "Am I really hurting you, well then I am sorry. You should have watched where you were going bad breath and you should have watched what you were going to say to me."

"Live a life you sucking gumbo. Why can't you leave me alone? Is it because you too had a freaking good life like mine, did you have to go through each moment like it was dagger, did you had to crawl and beg for leaving you alone, is this because you are as messed up as me, that you find it funny and quite amusing to taunt me?"

"Oh, I never got in the game darling." There was something else in his voice that scared me. And then I saw how the boys have all rounded up on us, leaving behind den and I in the middle. Tension crawled through my brain and Den was so close to me now with an ugly smirk on his face. "I never said anything to begin the game that I had in mind from the very beginning I saw you fatty. You turned down my first offer; my first love turned me down. Do you know Loren from Monty high, the lonely boy from River mouth?" his eyes were intense and I remember a boy with spectacles telling me about his love to me nervously from the corner of River mouth school garden. I never was a love kind of person and I smiled at his request and told him that he will find someone better than me and walked away. God, he has grown to such a handsome man.

"But, I never thought you were this serious and Loren, I mean Tobias, or Den, I don't even know who you are or what to call you. One fine morning you walked right to me and said you liked me... what do you expect? That I should run in circles and accept you? I am sorry but I am not that kind of person Tobias. I am still not into love and relationships. I have plans about myself and love-life isn't one. So, leave me alone, you are frightening me."

"See, you never had any emotion, you never realized it was me, last time I came this close, but you said something smart and walked away, you turned and saw me gaping at you, staring at you, but, still you walked away. That is the reason why I was cruel to you, why I made my friend be an ass to you, you never saw us intimidate anyone else nor pick on anyone else, did you? It was only you."

"But, Annie told me..."

"She is my sister."

Silence!!!!

"WHAT?"

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  I have decided to go with Jensen Ackles as Fabian...