How can I write what I'm feeling
when I don't even know?
How can I write about what I'm feeling
when I don't want to feel?

How can I do anything when I can't even think,
when my brain is suffering from lack of sleep
and no matter how hard I try I still can't sleep?

How can I laugh and smile and pretend
like everything's alright when I keep falling
apart, when I keep wanting to give up?

How can I get through each day without passing out,
without collapsing,
without blacking out despite the dizziness I keep feeling?