What if I'm just wasting time over something that will only leave me broken? What if I'm just wasting another moment on a friend I'm afraid of trying to keep? What if it'd be better if I didn't fight to stay by her side, like I had done with all of the others? 

What if I'm wrong? What if I'm right?
There's really no answer, just some inferences and guesses.
What if this ends badly? What if it all somehow becomes my fault like every time before? 

What if we just gave up? We both just stop trying to be friends.
What if all the jokes we've shared just suddenly disappear,
And suddenly instead of being two friends, of being a goddess and a butler we just become two strangers?

What if-?
No. Just what if