If your my friend I Siriusly suggest not reading this, if not. Go ahead.
Yay! So apparently there's a new theme in my life where I have to cry sometime after my birthday. Last year because they still don't understand, and I can say the same for this year. Auntie said she'll give me some money for my birthday instead of coming over like I've asked so many times. I didn't expect anything from S or SS or G or A since this is one of the only times I've ever met them but Auntie, she was there. She saw me crying and she still doesn't get it? Gods...
I thought that things would change, that's all that's been happening, change. I thought that if I hoped and wished and begged enough it would all change. But it didn't. I'm still in his room, barely being able to see because the tears refuse to drop. My eyes are tear filled and I'm confused. I think I wanna be a sound engineer or producer, music is good. Music helps, music makes everything go away and be blocked out. So does writing... please don't take my phone this year. When I start crying randomly I need to be able to write easily. Whatever. You don't read this and you don't hear my cries and pleas. Well, I should be headed off. Thanks for reading.