okay so like

this might be triggering idk

but there is this sled harm prevention method

in which you draw on your arm in red pen

and its meant to sorta trick your brain into thinking to self harmed

& I was washing it off

and i realized is did it really hard

and now there are scratches going up my arm

and now I'm sad and disappointed in myself

I'm gunna go to bed and sleep for 10 years

night