I love you but sometimes I think I love you too much.

We sat on our bed in our undergarments hot and sweaty, high off of LSD. My lips swollen and neck bruised from Jai's kisses. We laughed at nothing while the sun slowly set. I move closer to Jai as he watches cars zoom by out the window. I kiss his shoulder, earning a smile from him. "Promise you won't leave me." I whisper. "I promise I won't leave you. I love you too much." He says, pecking my lips. We lay down as we watch the artificial world go past us.

It's crazy how we started off screaming in each others faces to getting high. It wasn't always like this. Usually we would fight and walk away for a few hours hoping to cool off. It wasn't a rare thing though. Jai always had me going crazy over him even when we fought. He's all I think about and I don't really know what I'd do with myself if he left. I love you but sometimes I think I love you too much.

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It's just one of those days where I look at my naked body in the mirror and just cry. I cry because I'm too insecure about everything. My body, my face, everything. I'm afraid that Jai is going to find somebody else that is so much better than me. I'm afraid that one day he's going to look at me and just leave. I just want to be normal. I'm just fucked. I hear the bathroom door open and see Jai staring at me.

"Come here." I walk into his arms as he holds me tight. "I told you that I'm not going to leave you. We may not have the best relationship but that doesn't mean I don't love you. Your mine and your going to be mine for a very long time." I could feel the tears run down my face and he wipes them away.

It's crazy how we found each other. We need each other because we're to fucked up to be loved by others.