I have no idea where I'm going with this chapter so yeah

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Sub's POV

Tigger brushes his face up against my face in an attempt to get me to pet him, and Dragon keeps nudging my hand, which I have hanging on the bed, because I haven't taken my meds yet and she will not stop til I do. I really should, because I can feel the dull ache in my chest, which is currently somewhat manageable, and ignorable, but gradually becoming more and more 'there'. I'm purposely breathing really shallow and pretty quick because breathing any deeper feels like someone stabbing me in the chest and back, and honestly, that is not exactly how I want to spend Saturday morning.

"Dragon, stop" I whine-mumble -what ever the hell, but she doesn't, and I mentally curse the person who trained her to do this. "Okay. Okay"

I sit up, wincing slightly, and looking up at the ceiling "Fuck. My life" I get out of bed, shoving my phone in the pocket in the front of my hoodie, and walk to the bathroom, brushing my teeth, and reaching up on the shelf, and grabbing various bottles, and reading the sides to make sure they're the right ones, painkillers, anti-emetics, painkillers, antidepressants, painkillers.

I get half way through trying to get the right amounts of pills (which are actually really brightly coloured by the way. One is bright pink, one bright blue, one white and others a mix of red, yellow and blue.) before dad shouts up to me

"Sub what are you doing"

"Cocaine" I laugh at my own 'joke' for about 2 seconds before wincing, and I hear him give me an unimpressed sigh "I'm taking meds why"

"I was about to tell you to take em, so never mind"

I look down at Dragon, who sat and watched me count the pills "I've been taking these for 2 years and he still doesn't trust me to remember huh?" She carries on staring at me as if she hadn't been listening, tilting her head, but still, talking to her makes me feel better.

I stare at my hand, counting the pills, to make sure there were 8 and the right ones where there, filling a cup with water and taking the pills.

I get my phone and lean against the sink, looking through messages from Seto, and then the ones from Ethan. And wow he wasn't kidding when he said he was gunna spam me.

Wow gee spam much

Dragon follows me as I walk back to my room, and lay back down again, jumping onto the bed and laying her head on my tummy and looks up at me.

Yep

Are you free today

Well

Dragon moves her head up my tummy til she gets to my hand, and puts her head under it to make me pet her, so I do otherwise she'll end up on top of me.

I'm taking dragon for a walk later

But I'm not going anywhere else bc im lazy

Okay, but, where are you walking dog

The park

Which park

Idk, just the park

Where are you going with this

Does said park have like, 17000 picnic benches, and an old swing set?

Yes

Well I'm walking my dog there later, wanna meet up

Mmmmm

Okay, what time

I usually go about 2ish so I'll meet you there at 2:15 ?

M'kay

I yawn, stretching my arms, before continuing to pet Dragon as she falls asleep, at which point Tigger had joined Dragon and was under one of her paws, so I took a picture and sent to Ethan.
I try and move, without disturbing the sleeping animals (because that would mean they would abandon me), I try and reach for my ear-buds.

I grab them, before going back to the position I was in before, trying to stay dead still, to make sure Dragon and Tigger wouldn't move.

I put my earbuds into my phone, going through about 30 songs before getting bored and stopping at the song I got to.
Fucking hell, its only 8:00am.
Trying to Rub the tired from my eyes, I look down at the cat and dog, moving away slowly from them so they wouldn't wake up, because it would make me feel bad.
After standing up, walking to my door, and down the stairs, I sit on the sofa, casually trying to will myself to not be out of breath, and fuck, that piece of shit cannula that I hate with my entire being is pretty useful.
Fumbling around in my pocket, I have a surprising amount of things in my pocket, I get my phone out and go through various apps, going between beating my high score on subway surfers, and texting Ethan and Seto.
-TiME SkIP-
I am relatively proud of myself, not only have I gone up and down the stairs about 3 times with out admitting defeat, gotten changed out of my PJs, and put on matching socks for the first time in about a month, I haven't actually backed out of walking Dragon with Ethan and his dog. The thing that was most likely keeping me going was the picture Ethan sent me of Bippy. I mean, the least I could say is 'Cute dog', and you know how when ever you see something really cute you have that feeling in you gut that you just wanna squeeze it, I totally had that feeling when I saw the dog. An article I read on the internet, probably when I was in hospital, because that's when most of my weird research goes on, that when you see something cute, you mind doesn't know how to process it and in turn wants to kill it.

'Dragon,' I call up the stairs, awaiting for her to pad down the stairs and sit. Dragon's one of those really freaking well behaved dogs, that you don't need a leash for when you take them on walks, which is helpful, because it means I don't get pulled over by the dog being over eager, and she generally tries to please me by going the same pace as me. Also, I can't hold this annoying oxygen tank thingy and a leash at the same time.

The park is about 5 minuets away, normal walking speed, so for me its gunna take about 10, I should be there like, 5 minuets early. Hopefully.
I open the door and take one step out, before Dragon runs in front of me onto the front lawn and runs in a circle about 4 or 5 times, before coming back to me and walking next to me.

Once I'm at the park, I sit on one of the benches and watch Dragon run in circles to her hearts content for a while, until she stops her circles and looks behind me and does this growl-snarl thing, like she does at the mail-man.
At first I kinda froze in fear like 'oh shit, who's behind me' then it me like a ton of bricks that I'm meeting Ethan and I turned around to see, exactly that, Ethan.
'Hi' I say, turning back around to Dragon, who looked like she was contemplating going back to her circles. 'Dragon, come here'
Once she obeyed, and was sitting next to the side of the picnic bench I was on, I looked back at Ethan, who was sitting down opposite me.
'Okay so' He started, tying the dog lead he had around his hand, around a part of the picnic bench 'Fucking, Tigger, for a black and white cat'
I laugh, fiddling with the bottom on the flimsy plastic tubing from my cannula, 'I was seven okay'
Dragon lays down, and, who I'm assuming is Bippy, unless Ethan stole, traded and borrowed a dog, layer down too, and they looked at each other as if to say 'Where stuck here forever with out idiot owners'
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I'm sorry this is so late, I will most likely oubably be updating soon, sorrryyyy, hope you enjoyed, also can people tells me why they thing of my ee, I'm trying to do it a bit different s yes
Have a nice day
Toodles