Febuary 1998

Dear Cas.

I love you.

I found that Elvis record the other day.

It was in an old box of records and I nearly listened to it.

I didn't, though. It just would have hurt.

I still know all the words to that song. I still remember how I would sing it to you and whisper the words in your ear.

'Wise men say only fools rush in, but I can't help falling in love with you'.

That was my problem though, wasn't it. I couldn't help loving you. I can't help loving you.

Do you remember when I spilt that milk? People say theres no use crying over it, but that was when I started to lose you. When i was drawn, and went to the army and when I left you.

God, Cas, I'm sorry. It was my fault. If I hadn't have left,  you would still be here in my arms.

I'm so so sorry Cas.