January 1999

Dear Cas

My love, I haven't written to you in a while.

I'm sorry.

I know you don't get to see these letters but it feels like I'm neglecting you, and darling, I never want to do that again.

I bought a CD player yesterday. One of the little portable ones with headphones.

You would have loved that. We could havr taken it to our beach and danced on the sand.

You were never all that good at dancing, but I could have taught you.

So many things I could have done.

I'm sorry, Cas.

I love you more than anything, my darling. I want nothing more than to see you again, to hold you in my arms and kiss you.

I wish I could.

I doubt I'll ever finish a letter enough to call it finished, so this is it for now.

I love you so much, my darling