I feel so alone when I was 16 I was raped for two years and I was forced to watch porn The whole thing was planned my entire car planned everything I was forced not to tell for two years and then the end of the second year I had enough and I told I didn't go to school the rest of the year I felt helpless I felt like it was my fault I Felt like I did something wrong then again it happened to me this past year again and I tried to OD with my medication and my brain swelled and I was died that day it's hard to tell my family how I'm feeling or what I'm going through because they judge and they criticize me and my family not my mom judge me and criticize me because of my weight I don't know what to do i'm on the verge of just wanted to end it or just hurt myself I'm so scared that I will eventually hurt myself I wish you were here that I can talk to you face-to-face I figure out what to do because I can't live on my own and I have anger issues to the point where I scream I swear I threw things I get out of control to the point where my body is literally shaking I've been in my room for five days now and I don't want to go out of my room and then eat something or do something because I am makes me feel uncomfortable when I'm with my family love Stevi