"Hyung, are you okay?"

Jimin sniffled and faced Jungkook who was behind him, his warm breath still hitting Jimin's neck. As Jimin stared back at Jungkook's eyes, obvious that he was still sleepy as he was still blinking over and over again, the older of the two smiled at Jungkook adoringly as he pushed the box and its contents under his bed without it getting Jungkook's attention.

"Why are you crying, hyung? Did something happen?" Jungkook frowned, his hands on Jimin's shoulders, caressing them, and Jimin just wiped his tears away as he lightly pushed Jungkook's chest so he'd land on the bed again, his back touching the cold sheets. Jungkook smiled beneath him, his hands resting on Jimin's legs without him noticing, and Jimin just smiled back, kissing Jungkook's forehead.

"I'm okay. Just looking at some pics," Jimin replied, touching Jungkook's cheeks and he couldn't help but kiss them, one by one, noticing the younger one froze, his face turning a light shade of pink.

It's funny how they've been friends for years, but none of them even had the initiative to make the first move. Years of silent gestures, yet, they were still shy with one another, and after years of no one doing anything about it, they've reached this point, Jimin kissing his cheeks and Jungkook couldn't help but combust internally, making him think that his heart was too weak for this.

He looked at Jungkook's tired eyes as the younger one looked at his eyes, too, still filled with tears, but Jimin assured him he was fine and there was nothing to worry about. Jungkook was still flushed, so Jimin had to say, "You know, you don't have to be shy around me anymore."

Smiling, Jungkook replied with a short, "No, I'm not."

"Yes, you are. Even after everything, you still freeze when I kiss your cheek? You cutie," Jimin had to say with a teasing smile, and Jungkook wanted to retort, but when he opened his mouth to defend himself, nothing would come out.

"I'm sorry, okay, I'm still trying to get used to this, and believe it or not, I still can't believe this is happening," the younger one replied, letting his mind wander to how he managed to be in Jimin's room, managed to let Jimin pepper him with kisses, and now Jimin was resting on top of him, and Jungkook couldn't believe it. His eyes trailed down, reaching Jimin's lips and by instinct, he bit his own.

"Jimin hyung..."

Jimin followed Jungkook's gaze, and right there, he saw the look in his eyes, so he brought his hands to rest on top of Jungkook's chest and gave him a gentle massage.

"But you should get used to this," Jimin smiled his sweet smile, making Jungkook's heart swell. His stomach flipped, his mind went crazy, and his heart, especially his heart, palpitated. He shouldn't be reacting this way. They've only been more affectionate towards one another these past few months, but why, Jungkook couldn't help but ask himself, why was he reacting this way? Why did his body suddenly feel warmer? Why did the room suddenly feel so warm when it's just the two of them, alone?

"Hyung, tell me what's bugging you right now. Tell me. Open up to me as if I'm not Jungkook," the younger one finally said, and Jimin blinked a couple of times, his hands not resting on top of Jungkook's chest anymore as he slid off of him, making Jungkook's heart sink to the pit of his stomach. "If it has anything to do with me, I'll try to fix things."

The older one rested his back against the headboard in defeat.

"I don't know who's been giving me these letters," Jimin started, diverting his eyes to the white sheets covering Jungkook's clothed body, covering his body, and he just wanted to bury himself under those thick sheets because he felt lost. He hasn't opened up to anyone about the letters, and he's been receiving them for months. Bottling it all up inside would make him lose his sanity, and right now, right now, he needed to tell someone about this.

"Are they bothering you?" Jungkook's question let Jimin shake his head frantically, his eyebrows furrowing.

"No, no, no, don't misunderstand. I love those letters. They mean a lot to me. I've been going through a lot and those letters...it's as if that person knows what's bothering me, that I'm hurting. I don't know, but receiving those letters everyday makes me happy. Like how you make me happy," Jimin smiled, making Jungkook smile, too, even just a bit. He could see sadness in Jungkook's eyes for a brief second before the younger one looked up at the ceiling as if it was interesting, but he still gave Jimin his undivided attention.

"Do I really make you happy?" Jungkook whispered, his voice sounding as if it was going to break. Jimin got taken aback, suddenly feeling so bad because why would Jungkook, out of everyone else, think that way? If Jungkook didn't think that Jimin's smiles and laughter when he's around him were serious and were real then Jimin didn't know what else to do to prove it to him. The younger one didn't know he made Jimin so happy and feel so grateful that he was still alive. With tears in his eyes, Jimin swallowed the lump in his throat as he brought himself to say something.

"Jungkook, I would've been dead by now if it weren't for you," the older one swore to himself he wouldn't cry, but when Jungkook sat up and looked at him, their eyes meeting, Jimin wiped his tears away just to look at his arms, the old scars still visible, the scars he'd been hiding from everyone, but Jungkook was the one who stopped him from doing things he shouldn't be doing in the first place. Those insecurities, his depression, those people trying to put him down got buried deep under the ground because now Jungkook was the one who made him forget those things trying to weigh him down. Jungkook made him feel like he wasn't nothing, like he meant something. Everything.

"Hyung, stop crying..." Jungkook crawled up and sat right next to him, embracing Jimin as the older one continued to let his tears fall, his silent cries making Jungkook's heart ache. It pained the younger one to see Jimin this way. He shouldn't be crying, but he had to let it all out. "I'm sorry. I...I just want you to be happy. If I have to stay here all day, for a week, for a month, just to see that smile on your face, just to make you laugh, I would."

Jimin looked up from Jungkook's tear-stained shirt and faced him, saying, "Kookie, please say something. What if I find out who's been sending me these letters...what happens if it's not the one who I'm hoping it would be?"

Jungkook stayed silent, his eyes just focused on Jimin.

"Who are you hoping it would be?" Jungkook's voice was gentle, sweet, just like his hand that was setting aside those hair strands covering Jimin's eyes.

"I...I can't tell you," Jimin frowned, stuttering.

"You think what you want to think. I'm okay with whoever it is as long as they don't hurt you," now it was Jungkook's turn to sigh as he faced the ceiling again, his chest suddenly feeling so heavy.

"You don't care if this stops? Us?" Jimin's chest hurt, too. "I mean, what would happen to us?"

"Was there ever an us, hyung?" Jungkook muttered, half hoping Jimin would hear it, half hoping he wouldn't. Because if anyone was confused here, it was Jungkook. He was lost and he didn't know the answers. Jimin goes and sees Mina then he finds the one sending the letters, and if he didn't have anywhere else to go, Jungkook thought, Jimin would come to him only as a last resort.

"Jungkook...I do care about you."

"Hyung, when you see me, see her and find that person who's been sending you letters all at the same time, it confuses me. Doesn't it confuse you?" Jungkook removed the sheets that were around him as he sat in the corner of the bed, not facing the older one because not only Jimin was hurting. Jungkook was, too. "What are you gonna do if you find the person who's been sending you those letters?"

Guilty, Jimin slowly crawled his way to Jungkook, letting his tears fall, staining his flushed cheeks. Jungkook's eyes were red as he looked down at his palms, playing with his fingers, his hair covering his face and Jimin just wanted to whisper, whisper to Jungkook with all that he had, 'I'm sorry.'

"I'd tell that person I like someone else," Jimin said in his ear, settling himself in Jungkook's lap and hugging him tight. Jungkook kept quiet, but he found himself bringing his hands to rest on Jimin's waist, and the more he felt Jimin breathe close to his neck, the more he realized his arms were now bringing Jimin close, even closer than before, and Jimin's arms around him didn't help. "Jungkook, look at me."

It took a few seconds before the younger one gave up, swallowing the lump in his throat as he met Jimin's dark orbs, glistening, the tears making his eyes appear brighter, and a peaceful silence cradled them.

"But if I were to choose what I want to see everyday, between you or the letters, guess which one I'd choose?" Jimin questioned him, and Jungkook's heart skyrocketed. This was such a hard question, and seeing Jimin's eyes on him as he asked that question made him insecure because he didn't sign up to feel this way.

"The letters?" Jungkook joked, trying to ease the tension, a stupid smile on his face. That just made the older one laugh as he combed through Jungkook's hair.

"I'd choose you, idiot," Jimin replied, making Jungkook's smile grow even wider.

"Did I ever mention that you're beautiful? That you're special?" now it was Jungkook's turn to say, earning him a punch on the chest and Jimin's laughter echoing in his ears made his insides tingle. "And that I want to see your smile everyday? I love your smile," he continued, and Jimin's stomach was flipping already, and he felt so warm and touched that happiness was buzzing inside of him.

"Jungkook?"

"Hmm?"

"Nothing," Jimin laughed some more, making Jungkook tickle his sides because he was a tease. Jimin couldn't breathe as he was being attacked in his bed, Jungkook not wanting to give up as he had that big grin on his face. "JUNGKOOK! STOP- I- BWAHAHA! STOP! I SAID STOP, I CAN'T BREATHE- OH, MY- HAHAHA!" Jimin had tears in his eyes, and by the time he was crying, Jungkook hovering over him, he said, "You know I'm ticklish!"

"I know you are," Jungkook teased with that proud smile on his face. His legs were on either sides of Jimin's waist, and he brought his hands to rest on either sides of Jimin's head, too.

"Jungkook?"

"You keep on saying my name," Jungkook laughed, caressing Jimin's cheek with his thumb. "I'm here. I'm here, hyung," he told Jimin with his adorable smile. "What were you about to-"

He got cut off when something soft and warm met his lips. It felt so good, so right, and that's when he noticed what was happening. He had been waiting for this.

And now it was finally here.

Jimin kissed him.

The older one pulled him down so that Jungkook's chest was now touching his, his whole body so close to Jimin's that it was so warm, so warm that they'd both combust.

Jungkook's hand reached Jimin's cheek to stroke on it gently, like how Jimin was with him right now, gentle, sweet, careful.

In all honesty, Jungkook didn't know what to do since his mind wouldn't cooperate with him. In all times when his mind would function well, he wondered why it wouldn't function now when he needed it the most, but Jimin smiling into the kiss and sighing contentedly gave Jungkook the courage to massage Jimin's sides from under his shirt, making the older one shudder beneath him.

"I didn't expect this," Jungkook breathed out, panting a bit as his gaze fell on Jimin. His hair was all over the place, his lips looked so inviting, his dark eyes only on Jungkook. The moment Jimin pulled on his shirt to capture his lips once again made Jungkook's heart beat a thousand beats per minute, his heart swelling and his stomach feeling so weird because of those stupid butterflies wanting to break free and he just had to say, "I'm still trying to get used to this."

"But you should get used to this," Jimin repeated what he said a few minutes ago and smiled Jungkook's favorite smile on him, before feeling Jungkook's lips on his once more.

"If it's with you, I'm not complaining," Jungkook replied with a smile.

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Author's note:

Because I'm Jikook trash ㅠ w ㅠ

And I have a couple of new stories published (most of them are Jikook XD but you'll find Taekook/Vkook and Taejin, too LOL Bangtan in general XD) so you could check those out as well hahaha

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, everyone! This is my Christmas update bwahahaha I feel so good.

Since my birthday's coming up, this is my gift for all of you~ ㅜ w ㅜ

I love you and take care! Stay warm!

Much love,
Jammie
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