Why me?
Why have i been chosen to live? Thousands of people die but im still breathing,
Do ideserve to live? Do i deserve to breath? Do i even deserve to exist?
A hundred of questions are in my mind that i am beginning to lose,
I got used to this every evening when im alone, in my small room ,four walls and a full head. Here i am overthinking as i always do, tears are blocked in between my eyes while im daydreaming about another life, other freinds, another body!
... im try my best to draw a smile on my face everytime i hear a knock on the door, it's usually my mom calling me for a meal, i like my family but i feel that they don't get me, no one does actually!
They see me as an introvert, i talk rarely and laugh barely.
Im greatful for them because life could have been worst without them.
I live in a small flat in a smaller city, my city is small such as the minds living in it, i hate it monstly because, people here, have incredibly closed minds, they decline uniqueness and cherish similarity wich i don't undrestand
Why would someone hate on you only because you are different, you are surently better than they are and,still, they can't accept you among them.
I don't really care about them but the echo of their voices gives me a headache,
Since my early ages i had a dark side that gets bigger everytime, a side that no one knows about, it gets bigger and bigger because of the bad experiences i have been through, or the evil peole that i keep running to, i don't undrestand how someone could be so cruel, how life is cruel with a touch of bitter sweetness, that sweetness gets bitter and bitter, Yes!! It is a mess, life is a mess, and i am a hot mess,,WOW! That was a joke, you better like it because i don't joke that often, anyways you may think i have been talking for days or thinking for months, but believe it or not, these are my thoughts for one single evening,! As my brain gets tired and my sadness gets bigger, that's when sleep finds it's way and i go deep in the black hole of bad dreams and nightmares

~~~~~~~~END OF CHAPTER 1~~~~~~~
 THANK YOU SO MUCH for reading the first chapter, this is the first time i dare to write a story, if you like it please leave a comment so that i post chapter 2
PS: english is not my native language so sorry for the mistakes❤❤❤❤❤
 OVERTHINKING MAY KILL YOU