Really fucking lonely.

I seriously feel like no one honestly cares about me for shit. And everyone who is about to comment "I care!!!1!1!!!!" That doesn't count nor does it change how I feel. I could literally be out with someone because they wanted to spend time with me and still feel like they're just pitying me because I have no one.

I mean it's a fucking miracle that JesseNoah0813 can even fucking stand me holy shit. Three years and she still hasn't left.

I don't know. I'm just annoying and I push everyone away. No wonder no one wants to get to know me.

Not to mention I complain about not having friends but push away anyone new who tries to talk to me because I'm too awkward and closed off to let them be my friend.

I feel stupid because I'm always telling people to leave me alone because I'm fine, but I'm always lonely and insecure about literally every person I come in contact with.

I just don't want to be lonely anymore.