It finally happened, I was weak and I broke my clean streak, I broke my promise. I was clean for so long, months upon months I had stoped myself but today I couldn't take it anymore. I forgot what the pain felt like, I forgot that for the moments when it hurts, it doesn't hurt. I finally am feeling something, I'm not emotionless. I am not strong, small things get to me, people call me out on my faults and it hurts, I should be stronger. I need to be stronger.