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Here is the 4th chapter and I hope you all like it! I'm so sad that Christmas/New Year break is now over. I now have less time to update because I have cheer practice and also because I have to maintain my grades, which by the way, is so damn hard to balance. Do you have extra curricular activities as well? Haha. Just wondering, maybe you can relate.

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❝ But I was sure of something too: it's a lot easier to be lost than found, it's the reason we're always searching, and rarely discovered so many locks, not enough keys. ❞
-Sarah Dessen
(Lock and key)

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Chapter 4

"You can come out now. I know you are here somewhere." He said not once looking at my direction.

Nolan just continued punching the trees, harder than he did before, until he broke some more trees.

My eyes had widened. He must have sensitive ears and nose to notice me. I have been extremely quiet and careful not to get caught by him. Apparently, I wasn't careful enough. Now that it's all over, I sighed in defeat.

I paced closer to him. There was no point in running away for he knew I was already here in his presence.

"I'm sorry. It's just that-" I tried to speak but was cut off.

"What the hell are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with my Beta right now?" He said harshly. Avoiding my gaze, he seemed to be repulsed that I was even in his mere presence.

"What are you talking about?" I questioned. Is he talking about his Beta? Beta Mason Clark?

"Do not act all innocent. You claim to be my mate yet you try to flirt with Beta Clark." Nolan hissed.

He did not just say that.

I do not! Mason and I are just friends. He should know that I won't look at anybody but him since he is my mate! Plus, my inner wolf would not want anybody unless it was his wolf.

Mason is my actual friend that will help you and I work things out! I bit my tongue hard so I wouldn't blurt it out.

I was pissed at his accusations.

He is utterly confusing! I swear! He doesn't want me yet he's mad at me for befriending Beta Clark!

"I am your mate! Damn it! I wasn't trying to get it on with him! Much less flirt with him!" I said through gritted teeth.

I got a feeling he saw me holding hands with Mason and got the wrong idea. I would never cheat on my mate. Never. Plus, his Beta was just comforting me.

"If I did not know you better, I'd say you're jealous." I muttered. He was acting really spiteful today. What's up with him?

"What? You think I am jealous of you guys? You are absolutely pathetic!"

My wolf whimpered at his words. He never fails to bring my esteem down low. Never fails to make me feel worthless.

Every time we talk, it's always about me not being good enough and him being angry at me.

"I'm just saying that you should stop leading Beta Clark on! Stay away from us! You are nothing but a nuisance to everyone you meet!" He shouted.

I'd be lying if I said that his words did not hurt. His words did in fact, hurt. Did he really think of me as a nuisance? A burden to him and his wolf?

I stood my ground even though I felt like collapsing. He wields his words like a weapon and it definitely attacked me like I was his enemy.

"Not until I get answers!" I screamed at him. I refuse to go down without a fight.

I deserved to at least know the reasons to why he does not want me. Was it that bad, being my mate? Am I really disgusting to everyone's eyes?

"Why can't you accept the fact that I am your mate? What have I done wrong for you to despise me? For you to treat me like this!" He treats me like I am nothing but dirt stuck on his combat boots. I stepped closer to him.

"You are not my mate! You hear me? Why can't you get it through your thick skull?" He shouted, emphasizing the 'not' whilst moving closer to me.

"I am! I am your fucking mate! Why can't you get it through your thick skull?" I defended myself, throwing his words back at him by repeating it. I am just stating the truth! Give me a break!

He was mine.

Nolan was my mate for sure since his wolf called out to me the moment we locked gazes in the festivity last time.

Even if we are arguing, I could not focus on anything but him at the moment because we were quite close to each other. Our bodies were almost pressed up together. Somehow, the contact had made me a little hazy, sighing in content. I guess he felt it too since his eyes widened in shock.

This was the only time I truly appreciated his specific features. He had a few freckles and a small scar on his eyebrow. I could smell his mouth-watering scent; it was masculine and fresh. His grey eyes were absolutely breath taking if I must say. Though the coldness seems to frighten me a lot; his looks might haunt me in my dreams.

I sound like a love stricken puppy but who can blame me? He was an eye candy and my mate!

"You are not! Believe what you want but I am never going to accept you as my mate!" He screamed at my face.

Nolan's nostrils have flared out of anger and he sprinted. Away from me, that's for sure.

I just stood there frozen.

What did I do to deserve this? Don't I deserve a true and loving soul mate? I haven't done anything wicked for me to get to this upsetting situation.

He's never going to accept me. That statement alone had knocked the breath out of my lungs.

'Stop saying that! He will accept us in time!' My wolf whimpered out.

'You, my wolf, should understand! He is never going to accept us. We need to just accept it.' I told my wolf quietly.

I fell onto my knees. My legs brushed against the soft brown soil. It hurt me real bad. So much that I felt my heart clench tightly and that I couldn't breathe. It was just so damn hard to.

I managed to get back up my feet but it was still quite difficult.

I tried to compose myself and brush off the soil stuck on my clothes.

Avalynn, you need to stay put. You can do it. I try telling myself.

Once again, I went back to the pack house. Obviously, sulking and moping around because the way I feel is still numb. People were throwing weird looks at me but frankly, I don't give a damn what they think.

I wouldn't even blame them since I look like a fucking emotional mess. Like my puppy died during Christmas.

Maybe he does not want to accept me because I am not that eye catching or perhaps not really that striking, attractive girl he wants. Or maybe because he thinks that I am weak!

Though I question, what is the actual reason why he is so damn disrespectful to me?

Moon Goddess you sure are the perfect matchmaker. I thought sarcastically.

I went up to my new room and managed to avoid my mate and other pack members. It was something that I really dodged. I don't really feel like talking to some of the pack members. Really I don't.

Frankly, I am hurt.

My mind is cloudy with distress.

I needed time and space to think everything through. First of all, I am living in a new territory. Second, we are preparing for the attack of a strange psychopath. Lastly, I'm living with my cold hearted mate that wouldn't accept me or at least respect me.

This was all too much for me to handle and think in one day. Hell, it's to much even for a week!

I laid myself down on the bed and thought that if only I was mated to a different person, I would be so damn happy and grateful. I would always devote myself to the moon goddess for giving me a mate. Though in reality, I was left with a dickhead as a mate.

Damn it! If only I had a second chance mate! I probably wouldn't have to face another heart break again.

Frankly, life does not happen like that.

I tried to drift off to sleep since tomorrow, we have training up really early. That was the main purpose of living here in the Black Stealth pack; to train and learn how to fight like a warrior against the enemies.

And to think, my mate would be the trainer to tomorrow. My heart did little flutters when I thought of him.

I still couldn't help but think of my handsome mate, Nolan. Even saying his name mentally had made me blush.

I'm pretty sure things would not be easy for me. Living this close and not being able to touch my mate was already torture.

If only he would accept me as his mate and Luna. My wolf and I could only dream.

Though, I would never force or blackmail him to do so since I want him to realize that I am the perfect match for him.

That I was made for him. And him only.

That I could be the one to tame him and take care of him.

If he would only let me be by his side. I sighed sadly.

My mate was like an enigma; mysterious and cold.

I just have to break down his unresponsive exterior and figure him out like a detective.

That would probably take ages to find out but it's worth a try, right?

I turned off the lights of my lampshade, hoping that I could fall asleep.

After a few minutes, my eyes closed. Finally, drifting off to my dream world of a certain someone. A certain mate.

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7/24/16