Hey! Camila_Odair_57 You're finally here! You'll guys will see why soon

Also may be a trigger for some. read at your own risk... 😭

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Ever since Jay found out about (y/n) and Lloyd he was heart broken. He really did love her a lot. Everyday he'd wake up and find that the couple seemed to fall deeper in love each day. He lost her.

The later he came to realization that he might never get the chance to tell her how much she really meant to him, the further he was pushed into a depression. A deep dark state of depression. And no one knew this. He would bottle it up. Keep it secret. He didn't want anyone to worry.

Jay fixed his hair and changed. He put his mask of 'fake' on. Fake smiles. Fake happiness. Fake joy. Fake humor. Fake everything.

He trudged his way out of his room to find (y/n) and Lloyd in a heated make out session. Jay internally cringed and died. He hated to watch it, but he tried to play things cool. "Guys, the pizzas ready, you don't want it to be cold." They pull away. "Yeah, we will catch up." they both said going back to their make out session. Jay rolled his eyes.

(y/n) quickly pulled away. "Lloyd?" Lloyd smiled "Yes babe?" She smiled, and held his hands. "Do you love me as much as pizza?" He chuckled. "I would give up pizza for you." he replied. "Woah woah woah. Lets not get crazy. Pizzas your most favorite thing on earth."
"Yes, but I'd rather live without pizza, then to live without you." (y/n) kissed his cheek. "I love you." Lloyd smiled again. "I love you too."

Jay coughed. "I'm still here.... come on. now." he said quite annoy and on the inside sad. He didn't like to see their 'episodes,' but some how he always did. He sighed walking ahead of them and into the kitchen. He looked to see an unfamiliar face, she had brown hair and bluish gray eyes.

"Finally." she groaned. The girl seemed like she didn't like patients. "Who is this?" Lloyd asked walking in, his eyes seemed to wander on her for a while. "I'm Camila."She said glancing at him.
"She's our new ninja." Sensei Wu said calmly. Lloyd nodded and introduced his girlfriend and himself to Camila.

"Tell me something I don't know, already." she laughed a little, since she knew exactly who they were.
"That's a dangerous statement, for their are many things you do not know, and there are many more things we know but which should be kept secret." Lloyd said smartly.
"You're annoyingly smart, old man." she joked and winked.
Lloyd chuckles. "I try." he winks in return.

Jay glanced at (y/n) to see she had an annoyed/ jealous face on. Jay silently slunk down in his chair and ate while everyone was focused on talking. He hurried and finished, walking past the new girl who was still chatting with Lloyd and an annoyed (y/n), and back into his room.

Jay immediately locked his door and skidded down to the bottom of it breaking down crying. He couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't hold it in and hide it. It was all getting too much.His heart was already in more than a million pieces and no one ever seem to care enough to notice, which hurt him more.

Jay sobbed into his knees for a moment. Shakily he stood up and went to the mirror. He looked at himself disappointedly. He was angry. He was falling apart. He didn't like to cry. Jay groaned and punched his mirror shattering it and leaving shards in his hands. He began to sob harder. Not because of how it hurt, but how he felt inside. Every bad emotion was piled into him. It was like every bad poison and all he was doing was leaving it there and taking in more and more each day.

He felt like no one cared. No one noticed his absents. No one helped him. No one love him and no one would ever love him. He felt hate. Hate towards Lloyd. Hurt. Hurt because of (y/n). Pain. Pain because of his own mind. He couldn't escape this. He couldn't escape his demons and each day they grew worse and stronger.

He had no clue how much longer he could take before one day he would explode. Or he would completely break down and shut down. He was worried his heart wasn't strong enough to take this. Everything in him seem to shut down.

Jay looked at the mirror shards on the ground and picked one up. He lifted his sleeves crying.

Broken...

He put it down to his skin.

Broken....

He sliced it through not showing any pain, not any emotion.

Broken....

He watched blood drip down onto the ground and didn't care.

Broken...

To everyone he was OK. But really he was

BR(ok)EN.....