Just only seems like people only come around when they need something from me. Then after that they stop talking to me.
   The harder i try the more it seems like it is not good enough. I can't do anything right.
  I put on a fake smile just to make it seem im ok. But deep inside it feels like my heart and soul are ripped right out of my body. My mind is racing at the speed of light with so many thoughts racing around with my head ready to exploed. I feel completely empty inside. I just keep having nightmares of my molesting me, of my shooting at my mom, of people beating me, spitting on, and just picking on me. I find myself just breaking down crying just wishing the torture will stop.

I feel like just breaking down and giving up on everything. Tired of all the pain and torture that eats my soul, heart, and mind away.