( Serena's POV )

I closed my eyes. Thursday. Just two days until the weekend. I was sitting next to Sky who was diligent working on our project. Tomorrow was our presentation and I hadn't focused on school for almost the whole week. I was gonna fail my test geography I had to do today and French from yesterday. But my mind could only see how Ash pulled away.

"I'm sorry."he had said. He had looked anywhere except at me. Then he ran away. And me being me I had followed just to see him kiss that redhead; Misty. She was nice, but she had taken away my one true love. A good friend wouldn't do that, right? But on the other hand would a good friend emberass her friend to the whole class, while her friend faints? No. I was the bad friend she was the good one. She had actually tried to make Ash be mine. But he had refused. And who was I to deny true love. It was something I had never had. I thought I had true love with Ash, but now I realized I had only seen it from my side. Ash didn't love me. He never did. And the redhead had captured his heart. Fair and square.

"So, I don't really have time to work on the presentation today. Can you finish it on your own?"Sky asked. Her black hair was in a ponytail and she wore a grey shirt.

"Sure."I said without even listening to Sky. This was probably the worst week in my entire life. Everything happened so fast after each other. I kind of wished I was the next victim. Just so I was freed of all my problems.

"Great, thanks."Sky said. The bell rang and everyone walked out of the classroom to the canteen. I wasn't hungry though. I walked the canteen in and stood in the line. Behind me came Ursula.

"Serena, heard about your... embarrassing moment."Ursula said. "You tried to kiss Ash, but he chose he didn't want to kiss you. Pathetic."

I tried not to say anything back, but I couldn't really help myself. "Hey Ursula, heard about your embarrassing moment with Paul. Didn't he like you? Guess you're the one that's pathetic. I at least acknowledge my defeat."

"He loves me."Ursula said cold to me. "He's just a little shy, that's all."

"As shy as he is with Dawn?" I felt bad for Dawn, using her like this. She never even talked to Paul! At least I thought so... Ursula looked angry at me, narrowing her eyes.

"He has no affection to Dawn."

"Than why does his face soften when he kisses her." Okay I crossed the line! Dawn was gonna have problems with Ursula, because I had crossed the line. I needed to stop this now! Immediately! But I could only give Ursula an evil grin as I turned around. I bit my lip, but didn't turn back to say I lied. What was wrong with me?! I always pretended to be sweet and nice, but I actually was a monster! A big, lying monster! That overreacted too. Ursula was right. I was pathetic!

I saw how Ursula tried to prove me wrong, which I was. Ursula stepped up to Paul and asked him if I told the truth. He didn't even blink. He just shook his head and said something I couldn't hear. Ursula gave me a smirk and I looked away. I wass a heartless, lying, overreactive monster! I was nothing but a liar. Pathetic. And alone. I ran to my room, completely forgetting my lunch. I called out Fennekin, just so I could ask it to burn me alive. 

But as I called out my pokémon, I couldn't even make myself speak. I could only sit on my bed and cry. I was a heartless, lying, mean, overreactive and selfish monster! No wonder I had to go to this stupid school! Fennekin made a worried sound. It knew about my problems, it knew what I was. And it still cared for me.

"I don't deserve your care Fennekin."I said. It gave me an angry face. "Go find another trainer that isn't a backstabbing monster."

"Fennekin."it said as it jumped on me and tried to cheer me up. The crying had given me a headache so I laid down on my bed. The tears had stopped, but I felt twice as miserable. I was the worst person in history. I had never done anything good in my entire life. The only thing that would do any good was getting myself killed. I was a mistake of this world. I was...

I called back Fennekin so it didn't have to see this. I surched through my stuff and found it. My hands were shaking, but I knew this was the only way. I took a deep breath.

The knife I was holding was sharp and it easily found its way through my belly. It didn't even hurt as much as I thought it would. But the blood made my head spin around and the knife fell out of my hands. There was blood on my hands and my pink dress was getting a new color. Then I fainted. Or I died. I actually hoped it was the second option. My dead would make people happy. This was what needed to be done. I was too scared to do it before, but now I did. Now I could rest in peace.

( Ash's POV )

I had sawn how Serena ran away. Misty had followed her not long after. And I followed Misty. When Misty was in Serena's room she let out a scream and I ran to her. Serena was laying on the ground, bathing in her own blood. Her eyes were closed and the knife lay just a few inches away from her hand. I knew this couldn't be murder. The wound was too deep for murder. Serena had committed suicide.

I surched for my phone, but realized I didn't have it. I ran to the reception and called an ambulance. Misty tried to clean the wound, which seemed to be impossible. When I had called the ambulance I ran back to Serena's room. There was a crowd of people, whispering worriedly. I asked if anybody had a Miltank so I could heal the unconscious girl if it wasn't too late already. But nobody had a Miltank. Misty's Politoed cleaned the wound and soon after the ambulance arrived. They took Serena with them.

"She's not dead, but almost."the doctor said. Then they left us afraid and alone. Misty and I cleaned the room and we didn't have any classes, again. Sky had asked if she could do anything since she lived with Serena. She was upset, but seemed to handle everything quite well.

"How?"I asked her. The girl was helping with cleaning and Misty had left. "How can you handle this so good?"

"This is not the first dead body I've seen."Sky said hesitantly. "My mother... she died in a fire. My father has left me since that day and I was left alone. I followed in my mothers footsteps and became the Pyrite City Gym leader."

"I'm sorry. But we're sure Serena's not dead."

"I know."Sky said with a small smile. "I'm just preparing for the worst." I nodded. I felt bad for Serena. I had been too hard on her and it was probably because of me Serena had attempted suicide. Why was life so damn complicated?!

When Serena's room was clean I needed to talk with officer Jenny.

"Did you know Serena had a knife in her room?"officer Jenny asked. I shook my head.

"I thought no illegal stuff were allowed."

"That's true." Officer Jenny gave me a frown. "How was Serena doing? Was she depressive for a long time? Did you know anything about her current condition?"

"I haven't talked much to her. But I do have a theory." Officer Jenny waited for me to finish. "That monday I had rejected her when she told me she loved me and went to another girl."

"That explains a lot."officer Jenny said. "And had she showed any suicidal actions before?"

"Not that I know of."I answered. This was just too much for me. Leaf, Misty, Barry, another attack on Leaf, Gary and now Serena too. The thing was that Serena and Misty didn't got attacked. Misty fainted and Serena... Oh man! This was all my fault. I should've been more careful, I...

"Thank you."officer Jenny said and she stood up to talk to Sky. I bit my lip and walked back to my own room, my hands in my pockets and looking at the ground. Gary was out of the hospital and now Serena was in it. Never had a year been this messy. Tomorrow was Friday, tomorrow we would have to go to school even with the current situation. They had given Serena's closest friends extra time to go through this, but not me. I wasn't her closest friend, I was her closest enemy. Without me, this probably wouldn't have happened.

'Why are you so dense?!' It was a sentence Misty had yelled at me not long ago. She had warned me and I hadn't listened. Maybe Misty had predicted Serena's crush on me. And I was too dense to see it. Maybe I was dense. What maybe?! I was dense!

I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. 'This isn't happening. Please, open your eyes now Ash. This is just a stupid nightmare.' But it was happening and no one could deny that. So maybe I didn't like Serena the way she liked me, but I did care about the girl. We had been friends since we were little. I just really hoped she was okay.

( Serena's POV )

I opened my eyes, slowly. Shit! I wasn't dead. I lay in a hospital room with everywhere hospital stuff. I was tired and the wound on my belly hurt. They did a bandage around my waist to cover the enormous wound and stop the bleeding. I was sort of happy I still lived. Death was someone I didn't want to meet after all. I had always heard of suicide. Stories that were so cruel you couldn't sleep anymore. Sad and tragic stories, like Romeo and Juliet. But my story was different. And I would make sure I didn't get a sad ending.

The door opened and I saw Sky coming in. Somewhere deep inside me I had wished it was Ash that opened the door. But I guess some wounds would never heal. I smiled at Sky and she burst out in tears. Behind her Misty came in.

"She managed to stop her crying until now."Misty said. Misty gave me a weak smile.

"Why did you do that?!"Sky yelled as she tried to stop the tears.

"I feel like I messed up."I said. "I'm a heartless, lying, mean, overreactive and selfish monster."

"You're not!"Sky yelled angry and her eyes were still filled with tears.

"If there's anything you are out of those it's lying. Because you are the most beautiful person I have ever met. From the inside and from the outside."Misty said. I chuckled. She was so nice. No wonder Ash had fallen for her and not for me. Misty sat beside me and took my hand, while Sky turned around so I wouldn't see her cry. "And don't you ever do that again."

I nodded. Sky murmured something, but I couldn't hear what she said. Than my attention went back to Misty. She looked worried and I didn't remember me giving her that same look when she came out of the hospital.

"I'm so sorry."I said. "I was the worst friend to you. Can we start over?" Misty gave me a smile.

"You weren't the worst friend to me. You were the worst friend to yourself."Misty said smiling. "And if you want to start over that's okay, but I think we're just fine now."

Sky scoffed, but I looked at Misty. "Thanks." Misty gave me a bright smile.

"Visiting hour is over girls."the doctor said.

"These were only a few minutes."I said.

"We were here long before you woke up."Sky said as she finally turned to me again. Her eyes were red from the tears, but she had stopped crying. Misty and Sky walked out of the room and left me alone. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

( ????? POV )

"You took that shot on Leaf?"I asked. The man I now worked with almost a month nodded. "Thanks."

"Quiet."he said.

"Why? You don't like compliments?" He shook his head.

"I like compliments, just not now."he looked nervous.

"What's wrong?"I asked. My hair lay over my shoulders and without my makeup the scar on my head was visible. I had a long day. My cover as student got on my nerves. That honey blonde girl had committed suicide and was still alive. It wouldn't made any difference if she was alive or death anyway. My attack on Leaf had been a disaster. This time it wouldn't be. Leaf wasn't death, she had forgotten everything if my partner was correct. I took a deep breath and asked again, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing."he said after a long time.

"Good."I said. "How did you make the shot?"

"You're not the only one with a cover inside the school."he simply said. "Though I'm better at hiding it than you are."

"Oh, really?"I asked. "Who are you then?"

"I can't say."

"Than why do you think you're better at hiding it than me?"

"You didn't even change your name."

"What's your name?"

"None of your business."

"Oh but it is."

"Derek."the man said. Finally! I knew his name. A month of working with him and I knew his name. "They call me Derek."

"They call you?"

"I can't use my real name, so this is what you know."he said. "And in case you think I also use this name as my cover, no. I don't."

"Okay." I let a dagger in my hand. It was great to feel the beauty of a dagger again. No guns, no more. Only nature's weapons. Derek gave me a nod and I ran with high speed. I didn't get tired of running and it felt great. I threw the dagger at the target and hit the rose. Derek only nodded.

"You could say I did well, you know."I said a little angry.

"You did well."Derek said. Than he gave me another dagger so I could try again. I gave him an evil grin. Soon it would all happen. If I was ready it would happen. Just a few more weeks and then I would get my revenge. Misty. I wanted to spit on that girl. But I had to wait just a few more weeks.

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So I hope I made Serena a more likable person. Even though I made her... well, kill herself. At least try to. Anyways hope you liked this chapter.

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