"You're sure you're okay to come to school?" Astor asks for about the fifth time as I get ready for school.

"I'll be fine." I put a few bags of chips in my bag.

"But what about you getting sick? And what about your headaches?" He grabs my hands to stop me from packing.

"I have the medicine for the headaches. And I'm feeling fine." I reassure him.

"That still doesn't help. You need to go see the doctor, even if you are feeling better." His face reads Bo emotion but I look up to see him panicking underneath.

"Fine. I'll see him later." I get back to packing and then head down stairs to grab a bite to eat.

"Clarissa isn't home yet so you don't have to worry about being seen." I tell him as I see him peaking around every corner.

"I'm just afraid she won't like me if she finds out I've been here alot at night." He gives me a small smile.

"It's not like we were doing the dirty. Besides, she's used to it. A few years ago, back when my parents and sister were here, Chris was over all the time. He'd sneak in the house at night but he'd just wall out the next morning. They didn't really care." I shrug.

Astor looks at me dumbfounded.

"What?"

"You... You just talk about your family... And it didn't upset you." He tried to hold in all the shock but I see it coming through.

"Well I know there's nothing I can do now so I just need to live my life. I don't really have to move on and act like I never knew them but I don't think they'd want me to cry over them till I die." I shrug and put some toast in the toaster.

"I proud of you." I feel a pair of arms go around my waist and I lean back, laying my head on his chest.

"Thank you. For everything." I tell him.

"Anything, babygirl. Anything." He turns me around so I'm facing him and I look up to see him asking me a silent question. I nod and he leans in slowly, as if giving me time to pull away. I put both hands in either one of his cheeks, get on my tippy toes, and kiss him.

He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me impossibly closer to him. I wrap my arms around his neck and play with the back of his hair, tugging lightly. He moans and the next thing I know, I'm sitting up in the counter, Astor standing between my legs.

"You're too good for me. But I can't seem to let you go." He whispers."

"No, Astor. Don't let me go. You deserve the whole world. You're an amazing and sweet guy. You care alot about me and your friends and you protect those you love. Never say you don't deserve anything, because you deserve everything." I press a kiss to his forehead.

"Thank you." He mumbles and pulls me into a hug while I'm still on the counter.

"Anytime." I mumble back aslean my head on his shoulders.

I jump when I hear the doorbell ring and I jump down from the counter and go to the door.with Astor staying in the kitchen, I open it to see Chris staring down at me.

"Hey. What's up?" I ask, alittle confused.

"Clarissa told this morning that you've been sick and she asked me to bring you some meds and stuff." He hands me a bag and I open it to find movies, a hoodie, soup, and some pain meds for my headache.

"Thanks."

"No worries. I figure you won't be going to school today?"

"Actually I am. Astor came over a few minutes ago to drive me to school." I fiddle with my house key.

"Oh. Well I'll just see you at school then." He walks away and I go to close the door but he stops me.

"Rebecca, I really am sorry. Please forgive me. I was an ass, and I never should've done what I did. But I can't live like you don't matter to me anymore. Because you do." I have to make myself look away before I start to cry.

"Chris, I forgave you a while ago. You just never forgave yourself." I mumble, looking at my feet.

"No, you never did forgive me. At least, not to my face. I wouldn't know if you did or not." He looks everywhere but at me.

"No one can learn to forgive you if you don't forgive yourself. It's gonna eat you up, we both know that. But it's in the past. The past is in the past and it stays there. So just move forward." I shrug.

"I'll try." He nods.

"That's good. I'm sorry for the way I've been acting too." I look up at him to see a mixed emotion between sadness and happiness.

"Thank you." He gives me a small smile and then jumps. "Oh! I almost forgot!" He pulls something out from his pocket and I see that it's wrapped in a small gift box with a ribbon.

"What's this for?" I take it as he hands it out to me but I don't open it.

"For everything." He gives me a lopsided grin before straightening up. "I better go. I have to get to school to meet with Coach. I'll see you later, Bec." He pulls me in for a hug. After a few seconds I hug him back.

Damn, why do I have to miss him so much?

"Bye." I wave as he walks down the driveway and into his car. I watch him drive until his car disappears.

Why does it seem that when one thing goes good, more things seem to come? First, Astor can into my life. He's sweet and cute and funny and I like him. And now Chris suddenly wants to be my friend again.

Oh, mom, how I wish you were here.

OMG THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THE 500 READS! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!

anyways, thanks for reading guys. I know I don't update alot but hey? I make up for it right? Is this book worth the wait? (Don't answer that.)

Here's alittle Crebecca AND Rastor in here.

Because I know some of you *cough cough* (Nev) think Chris and Rebecca need to me together.

Things are getting alittle up beat here. Who do you THINK she will choose. (Not who you want her to choose (you know who you are)).

Thank you all again for reading my book. I've always felt that it was terrible and I cringed alot while writing alot of these chapters. I started this when I was in the 8th grade and now I'm already in the 11th. Yes, I've been working on it for 3 years. But honestly, this book was totally different when I first started writing it. I had this book that I was writing and then I had Tracing Stars. It used to be up on my page but I took it down because it's cringy. (Do you think I should put it back up? Maybe edited it alittle?)

I hope you all have a wonderful and amazing day!

•Marissa