***Notice***
If you're uncomfortable with the topic of sex, this chapter has a whole conversation about it.

And yes the conversation is as awkward writing it as reading it.

And also keep in mind, Shae is still getting used to human speech, so the way she speaks is not as fluent as a native speaker.

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Shae was torn.

What she had told Damien was something she truly felt, she was not meant for a pack, her entire life had shown that.

But she wanted him. She wanted him as her chosen mate, she wanted to dominate his nature and his human side, but as a female it wasn't something done, perhaps not as their wolven shapes, but maybe in their human shape she could...no, she would. How? That was a different question entirely.

She knew how mating worked as a wolf, having witnessed many heats and the ruts that come with them, scars were often left on the females' necks from their males biting too hard.

Shae had asked Katherine once before about human mating, but she would not say entirely, and her face had turned a bright red color as she stammered over her words before not saying anything. It was a topic she wanted to understand.

Shae desired a stretch and run in her wolf, her body itched something terrible having not shifted for several days.

Katherine had a backyard with plenty of trees and coverage for a shift, and she quickly stripped before heading outside where the cracks of her changing body echoed through the wood.

The air rushed over her heated skin. Not having shifted for a period of time made shifting a bit more painful, but the pain she was used to, it was nothing compared to what she had suffered. She felt every hair follicle push out her human hair in exchange for her primal side's and elongated teeth overtook the short blunted molars. Her throat tingled as if in memory of the injury that once plagued it as the skin stretched and changed.

Her scarred flesh no longer grew hair, and she knew it must look grotesque, but there was nothing she could do about it.

Shae relished in the dirt on her paws, taking in the scents the rushed through her nostrils, being a part of nature made her feel alive.

She marked her territory through scratching and scenting. This was her area now, though it wasn't much. She hungered for raw meat and the thought of fresh blood eunning along her tastebuds had her mouth watering. 

The trees held numerous rabbits and squirrels, rabbits made for easier prey, as they couldn't clamber up trees and out of the reach of her jaws. 

The first rabbbit she caught she was quick to devour, bones, fur, and all, the second and third she caught were for katherine to cook. Shae took her time to skin these ones and remove their heads and organs aside from their hearts and livers.

She buried the remains that weren't to eat so they wouldn't attract unwanted animals.

She made sure to clean off, rinsing the blood from her face and body, and had just gotten redressed when Katherine arrived back home.

"I was thinking chicken for dinner tonight, how about you?" She had a bag of groceries on one arm, and was holding her child in the other.

"I caught rabbits, but chicken can be good too," Shae gestured to the skinned animals in the sink.

"We can do rabbit, I'll just unpack these bags and find a recipe for them," Shae helped put things away, she had familiarized herself with the kitchen in the first moon she was with Katherine.

The rabbits took a while to cook, and when they were ready, Shae didn't take much because she had already eaten. They were covered in what was called tomato sauce, something that Shae enjoyed immensely in comparison to other sauces.

While everything was cooking, she'd fed Charlie the baby food designated for him before putting him in his crib. To her it did not smell at all pleasant, and when she took a taste made her gag. She was extremely grateful that grown up humans didn't eat this.

Once they were halfway through their meal, Shae put down her utensils.

"I want more to know about human mating," Katherine followed suit on placing her own utensils down.

"I had a feeling this may come up again, having met Damien and what not. For starters it's very different from what you'd imagine as mating being in your animal form, of course," she began to gte red in the face while speaking, "mating, or sex as it's called when humans do it, for you can obviously be done in both forms,"

"This is something not new for me, I understand to do it in my wolf, but not my human,"

"I know, I know, I am saying it for my sake," she ran her hand over her face, "God help me," she muttered. Shae didn't understand. 

"Between a man and a woman, and in the case of you and Damien, this is the most intimate thing you can do in a relationship. It is a show of complete trust and faith in the two people. Obviously it's done naked,"

"Naked? What do you mean by that?" Shae interrupted.

"Uhm, well, to put it simply,without clothes, bare skin on bare skin, your preferred state," Shae nodded in understanding. She had seen Damien bare before, and she knew him to be a proud male.

"How does it happen? As my wolf in his wolf form, Damien would bite my neck as a dominant..." Shae was grasping for words, and Katherine seemed to understand.

"As a show of dominance before mating, yeah, I understand what you're saying. So mating as humans is essentially the same th-"

"So he bites my neck?!" Surely there was another way.

"No! Unless you're into that, but we can discuss that another time. No, same thing as in, its really dependent upon position, but he would take you from behind like as in your wolven form," she didn't like that option.

"There are more ways to mate, I want to...control? Show me?" She asked. Katherine paled before returning to her shade of red.

"Uhm...okay, this is going to be weird because I'm not a man, but stand up; we're going to have to do this where there's a little more room," food was forgotten at this point as she and Katherine moved to the living room.

"So, you want control of the situation. Lay down on your back. So, in this picture you are damien, and I am you," Shae propped herself on her elbows as Katherine straddled her lap, she felt her face heat up, this was definitely weird.

"So, yeah, and from there you, because if hes like most men at this point he'll be fully erect and you can mount him. And also from there, you have the say in what happens, you can take it easy, or not, you can also turn around and face away from him as you have sex," she demonstrated that as well. Shae realized how versatile this position could be. Katherine got off of her and helped her up.

"And you can do it in a chair, the bed obviously, places comfortable for you and him," Shae nodded, she understood now.

They returned to the table to finish their food.

"Are you going to go back to him?" Katherine asked after a long silence.

"I want to, but pack life is not me. I had one before this time, they did not die, they left me after a challenge. I was just a pup by your standards, just through my first heat, but I had power, but not now, I am a free wolf. The wolves found me many moons after I fell before and called me their alpha. My tongue had no one for it, even in that tongue alpha does not fit, but you won't get it, so alpha is better," Shae told her. This was the first time Katherine had asked about her past and Shae did not want to share, but Katherine had a choice in taking her in, and she did, so it was owed.

"Challenge? What do you mean?"

"You are alpha by wolves choosing you, or you fight one. A twoshape like me fought me for mine and I lost. Same thing this time but they killed my whole pack even the pups. Poor Shirak, she tried to defend them, but there was many, all ready to kill," she absentmindedly ran her hand over her throat, scarred flesh from his claws would serve as a reminder of that for moons to come.

"Surely Damien can protect you?"

"I'm more powerful than him, by nature, I could claim his pack with that only," but his wolves would not bow to her if she did, his beta did not like her, so neither would his others.

"Oh, okay,"

Shae helped clean the table and put everything away before going with Katherine as she read to Charlie, it helped her learn to speak, to learn how words flowed together in this tongue. Her favorite story so far was one about a woman who came to love a beast, it was what Katherine called a fairytale.

She fell asleep with Charlie, the little child's breaths were calming and the floor comfortable.

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Yes it is 12:30 am, but I wanted this up and it's taken me forever to finish, but I am pleased with it's outcome and I hope you all are as well.